Sshaylarose ...

2012-01-06T16:11:00.002+08:00

I thought you'll be e' first guy who proved to me that not all guys are e' same. But rly what you've proven to me is that ey're rly all e' same. Love can make you happy but oftentime it hurts. But love is only special when you give it to who it's worth. R/s are like glass sometimes is better to leave it broken en' to try to hurt yourself to fix it back. There're things that we dn't want to happen but have to accept, things we dn't want to know but have to learn. & ppl we can't live w/o but have to let go. Dn't ever give up if you still wna try. Dn't ever wipe your tears if you still wna cry. Dn't ever settle for an ans if you still want to know. & dn't ever say you dn't love him if you can't let him go.

You said you dsn't want to see me get hurt, so does that mean you closed your eyes when i cried? Oftentimes we said goodbye to e' person we love w/o wanting to. Thou that dsn't mean we've stopped loving em' or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful say to say i love you. Someday you'll cry for me like i've cried for you. Someday you'll miss me like how i missed you. Someday you'll need me like i needed you. Someday you'll love me like how i crazily loved you, but i wont love you. Cos I'm tired of fighting like hell. Moving on is simple, its what you've left behind makes it diff. Letting go isn't about giving up is accepting that there are things that cnt be. There're things in life we didn't wna let go of ppl we didn't want to leave behind. Dn't hold on to smth too long that's nvr meant. Sometimes we need to set things free befr it hurts us badly.

Dn't try to understand everything that is happening. Sometimes it is not meant to be understood but rather to be accepted thou ppl always said ' Everything happens for a reason ' Do you knw what's hard about being strong? Is that nobody cares to ask if you're hurt. Staying w someone you can't be tgt for alot of reason is like staying under e' rain. It's gna make you sick. It's nt by doubting a person that make things hurt you but to find out your doubt was true. We dn't have to rush things. Cos if something is rly meant for you, even if somebody owns it now, someday you'll own that too. What is hard in being alone is not sadness or fear, but its e' fact that billions of ppl in e' world, no one even cares. E' reason why isit hard to be happy is cos we find it hard to let go of e' things that made us sad.

Ppl stereotype, ppl judged, ppl criticises. But none i care. Why isit affecting me much? My ego became more unbearable each day. I rly dn't care what other ppl say about me. Cos' what ey've said i've done that twice to em'. So it's okay. But if ppl dsn't want to see us tgt, i rly dk how do i've to ignore it. Srsly it hurts. It's nvr easy being me. I dn't have everything in complete. Ppl dn't understand me at all. It's so tormenting to act like its okay but it's killing me inside. Yah idk how to i've to ignore it cos' you dnt even bother about this r/s, i assumed. If you were to hold me telling me everything is okay as long as you're there for me. I've no assurance. All you gave me was doubts. You were nvr there.

I changed at that point of time i knew ugly stuffs ppl said. But i dn't rly give a damn. Cos' love is bullshit. But ppl dk what you did to me & made me turned into a fxckedup 'bitch'. Why? Does anyone knw how you treated me back en'?

If no one wants to see us tgt, why are we still tgt? I mean why am i still fighting like hell to keep this r/s gg on if you dn't even give a damn. If you care, i dn't mind about fighting like hell for you. Why shld i? I'm tired of loving, waiting assuming, hearing lies, saying sorry & hurting.

I'm left w nothing? I dn't mind you restrict everything of me. It's okay if you dn't let me say hi when i see my friends on street. I dn't mind you asking me not to reply my friend's text. I dn't mind everything you restrict me. BUT WHY ARE YOU DOING ALL E' THINGS YOU RESTRICT ME YET I CAN'T EVEN DO A SINGLE SHIT?! WHY?! You've got your friends those that dsn't wants to see us tgt, you're nvr left w nth. There's no one i can ever turn to? You chased my friends away, those that were always being there for me when you forsake me. I wonder where we will go.

I'm tired, tired of loving you. I can't even voice anything out..

Please .. stop torturing me. I'm afraid of loving you. I dn't meant to doubt you getting all freaked out when your fone rings. But it's e' past that turned me into this way. Can you stop lying to me? Can you stop ' can't get enough of girls ? ' I'm rly tired. Idk how long more do i have to hold on.. Please. Stop.

Why no one understands? No one understands why i've turned into this. I miss me. I miss e' me befr i've met you. I lost everything. You were nvr there to hear me out...

2011-12-17T05:19:00.005+08:00

Kind of miss those hardcore partying life w all my girls & friends out there. Cutting down so much aft i've gotten back w him. Those periods of dramas when we're drunk in a group. Slaps forehead* WE'RE FXCKING NOISY! It's damn funnnnnnnn. I miss it! );

Something brought me here. My insomnia. Like wtheck am i doing in blogger at 5.39am? This feeling is shitty i swear. Like srsly?! I've to be up on 9 ltr. I'll get slaughtered if i'm not able to get up. Someone help me to get asleep pleaseeeeee. My cig is being so nice to be my companion at this hr oh yea plus my ipad. Nicest souls i swear for this moment ohnleee.

Sorry for party rocking .. Peeeeektures! I miss my girls. I miss Dor, fy, sw & junjun ); So sorry for not being able to meet up often. We'll hit e' club one fine day tgt! I know you all miss my presence. Hahahahaha!

I srsly need a haircut tmr. Shit! BYE.

2011-12-16T02:41:00.001+08:00

This is crazy. Can you believe I'm having insomnia right now when I'm supposed to be deprived of sleep?! I've nth to blog. Nth to say. But boredom brought me back to my memory lane. I'm on his bed w him beside me sleeping soundly. Just 2 more mths to my bday'. I dnt wanna grow up ); I miss my childhood. Ey're e' best memory I've ever had. W all my wonderful friends that I've grew up w. Just wish for one more time for time to turn back. It's impossible. Would I ever want to land myself over here? I doubt so.

2011-12-13T21:16:00.002+08:00

My life is fxcked. Fxcked!

I knew my next love life would be better, sweeter. Cos i believe in karma. (;
Watch your back dude. Hurt me once, karma would kill you twice.

Dn't talk about marriage to me. Cos' we'll nvr last. You can't handle me at my worst you dn't deserve me at my best. You screwed my trust. F-U-C-K you!

I'm leaving, & this time i'm nt turning back. It's time to find someone who can treat me right (;

I've no time for games.

2011-10-14T16:14:00.001+08:00

A.venue Bistro.

2011-09-30T01:14:00.002+08:00

My blog is fxcking dead. My life is in a mess. I'm updating for e' sake of memories for myself. Hoping few years down e' road i'll be flipping back e' archives of my blog knowing what i've been doing for all these while. Being single is good but sometimes lacking love. Lacking of someone to reprimand me when i get home late & being there for me. I wanna fall in love again, all over again. But i just can't find e' right guy. Countless of guys now. But none are my cup of tea. I wanna meet a cute guy. A real cute one. He just have to be cute & nth else. I love guys w hoodies on. Guys w a kiddy look but yet he's matured in e' inside. Can i like meet one soon? Haha. I'm just kidn'. I dn't think i'll ever fall in love. When i really fall in love i'm gonna make him e' one. E' one that we'll last for a lifetime.

What have i become? I'm running against time. Time just flies. I'm gonna be 20 in few mths time. Too fast. If only time could rewind. I'll choose guys wisely. & it'll not lead me till who i am today. If only i didn't met em', maybe i'm much more happier. Damn. Isit true that everyone just live once? Is there smth like e' next life?

I just dn't understand guys. He's e' one that made me so confused. It's still him. It's still 100210. FML. All our promises, all our future, all our sweet talks went down e' drain. One day he'll understand if he met one like how i'm feeling when he's walking my mile. All e' best.

I shld stop my party life soon. I'm partying crazy every week w/o fail. It's just everyweek. Is this e' life i wanted? Or back to those torturing period? Where i rushed back to his crib everyday aft work & rushing out from his hse to work. Having him by my side yet he's heart is on somewhere else? Both lives are tired. What do i want actually? Just someone whom love me wholeheartedly & isn't afraid to show e' world how much he loves me. Snuggling under e' blanket w sweet talks etc. Isit so hard? I'm nvr contented, all humans too.

I'm tired. So tired of my fxcking life. But i'm glad i've friends whom have my back all e' while. Thanks. But i'm still tired. When can i have my happily ever after? Reminiscing sweet moments. But ey' nvr lasts.

Oh ya & marché w him. Guess it'll be e' last meal. Haha. I rmbred e' first dining in marché w him we were both so broke yet he still make e' effort to fork out & brought me there w all my terrible whinings. Thanks for e' sweet (; you're e' best I nvr had.

2011-09-06T01:32:00.003+08:00

For all e' memories. For all e' tears. For all e' fights. For all e' laughters. For all e' risk. For all e' sacrifices. For all e' wounds. For all of what we've given each other. Finally it came to a halt. Thanks for being there. 100210.

I miss us sometimes. But it's e' not same misses anymore. I miss who you used to be. Dn't ever say sorry to me cos' it's like throwing a second insult on my face. You dn't need me actually. Maybe you're just afraid of being alone. W/o me being there to sleep by your side. Waking you up in e' morning. Cooked for you when you're hungry. Shopped w you giving you giving all e' comments & critics. Create a din in your room. Messing up every part of your room. I love e' way you are.

Thank you. Lewis Lim. For making me grow. For making me overcome every obstacles that i've came across independently. & deal w all e' tears everynight by myself.. That's when i realized i dn't have to rely on you. Cos' i can definitely handle myself. You were nvr there to catch me when i fall. I picked myself up thanks to you.

I left you, e' reason will nvr be i stopped loving you. I love you too much to let you go. Thanks for all e' memories.

& fml. All e' videos in my fone. We played crazily tgt. That's e' best part.

Go on w your life. Find a girl that could replace me. That could love you in a million ways. You deserve someone better. I dn't blame you for treating me like this. I've got only myself to blame. Maybe i just didn't play my part well as your girl. We'll be e' best of friends. (;

2011-08-03T01:38:00.003+08:00

I heard stories about you. Everyday i'm listening to e' song of e' drama we watched tgt in your room. It's playing every single day in e' fm. Did you even realized both of e' chi songs i'll remind of us are both from e' drama we first watched when we're tgt & e' other one is e' last we caught tgt? Why am i moving on? Why did i moved on so fast? No guys helped me to move on. You're still e' last i love. There's none other in my heart now. You know how cruel you are? I re read your texts sent by you. How cruel can you be to me? I feel like i'm a pathetic piece of crap! You left no living road for me to walk. How many times you've given me up so fxcking easily? How many times did you asked me to move on? I've gt no other choice left. I've nvr once given up on you when you asked me to. Till e' last time.. You left me w no fxcking choice. How many umpteem times i begged you back to me? You didn't even give a hoot to me. Coincidentally idk why i pressed till your texts. I reread e' one you sent to me w emoji like how i oftenly sent to you during those torturing period. I felt so silly & even wanna cry. Cos' i won't ever get a fxcking more en' 10 words from you. All you replied was ' siao ah? lol ' & no more. Ever felt how disappointed i felt at that point of time? I swear i typed w all my heart trying to make your day. But somehow you dn't need all these. It's just one sided.

My 19 yrs of life. You were my favorite hello & hardest goodbye. I'vr nvr waited for someone. Knew how i lived my everyday w fears in your house? Even how tired i am i'll still get up early thou i still have 2 more hrs to sleep befr gg work. But i still endure everything for e' sake of being w you. Everytime when you're in your room, aft i showered. I dn't dare to open your fxcking room's door softly. I deliberately make loud noises turn e' knob loudly to let you notice i'm coming in so you could stop your craps or flirting viewing girl's pic in your comp. Dn't even dare to fetch you right on your sch entrance just fearing you might not want anyone to see me. Dn't even dare to glimpse on your fone each time it rings. Rmbr i always acc you to walk to e' bustop & whe you board e' bus i'll go. But you're meeting your classmate there so i walked e' other way in case you dsn't want him to see me. I rather you deceive me rather en' letting me knw e' truth. Cos' i knw i'll breakdown. & to you when i cry it's irritating. My tears wet your pillow every alternate days. I always cry asking myself why did you do these to me? E' guy i love. I've nvr question any doubts on who's right or wrong but e' only thing i care is whether isit worth it or not. I'll tell myself everythings gonna be worth it in e' end. I dn't care how many girls you flirt how many girls you meet but e' only thing i care is whether will you be back to me.

I thot i could change you. I can't. I'm fxcking useless. Rmbr each tears you made me roll down my cheeks. It's every lie you lied. But i still lied to myself you didn't. Ever know how tormenting it could feel? Can't you see how much effort i made to change myself cos' of you? You endlessly got me for granted & hurt me countlessly. You made me fall for you by those sweetest words you nvr meant. Where have all those promises gone to? You played w fire time aft time. Tell me? How to get back to you thou times i think about you when some scenes & songs reminded me of you. You wouldn't want me to do back those 7mths to you. Cos' if i treat you e' way you treated me you'll hate me. All i knw is for all e' guys that came across me now i'll let em' taste e' way how you got me. Idk what's love anymore. All i know is how you got me becoming a player. Influencing my friends just to screw e' guys feelings up. All thanks to you.

Stop saying i've moved. Cos' e' one that move on first was you. It was nvr me. All those emoji texts i typed you restored your fone w/o even giving a damn of saving it down. My efforts just went down e' drain. You left me so unappreciated. You used to be e' first reason i smiled every morning but for e' torturing period you're e' reason behind each tear i cried at night.

I moved on not bcos' of stopped loving you. You left me w no fxcking choice. It's e' only way i've to walk. Dn't worry i wouldn't get myself any bf. Cos' it's e' player game starts now.

2011-07-29T00:05:00.002+08:00

Hello Stranger.

I'm not trying to pick a fight nor to knock senses into stubborn people's head. It'll just get to no avail. Just trying to reason out & for what i care what's right or wrong. You rly made me regretted being w you. My thinking wasn't like this in e' first fxcking place. It used to be ' love you once love you still, i always have & i always will. ' Seems like i've implanted a fxcking enormous mistake in my life which is ever being w you. Unnecessary rumours & being stab from e' back from your fee u wee bros. Thanks ah. Ey' nvr will comprehend how does it feels to walk this mile. Hey i'm not blaming you. But for all e' things i've done i just felt so unworth. I used to think everything will be worth in e' end. Guess i was wrong. Entirely wrong. Well, it's okay. You got your bros on your back, i've gone mine too steadily. Vice versa. How much awful or ugly stuffs that's spouted from their mouth my friends did it way much more uglier en' em' to say about you. I tried e' soft way. But it just dsn't works. I used to tell myself ' if i dn't cb, ppl will also cb to me. So why not i cb? So i wouldn't get hurt? ' So i'll knn cb all e' way. You made me do these. Just pray hard none of you ever falls into this misery. Cos' if you did you'll fxcking understand. What's e' use of holding on to grudges? I dn't hate all of you. I dn't owe all of you a fxcking living. If you think i'm at fault. So be it. It has nvr ever been a issue in my life befr & it fxcking will nvr be. I'll walk my way but just dn't intrude into my affairs. What's e' point of blaming? If all of you are each other pillar of strength would it even fall apart? C'mon la. Have you ever think what are friends for? Knowing him/her mistakes but still have her back all e' way supporting her? Reprimand him/her first but still you got to side her all e' way! Cos' this is what are friends for! Knewing their flaws yet trying to be understanding cos' him/her is just born this way?

Find it such a joke. Actually it dsn't matter much to be anymore. Cos' i'm out of that fxcking life/world. Just passerby in my life. What for? I'm not getting affected cos' ey' aren't even my friends. I've got way much more better stuffs to look out for.

For e' person i love. I'll risk everything to be w him i dn't care how fxckup i was being said. It just dsn't matter. Cos' you're all that matters. But you're making a fool out of me. Making me risk all these obstacles so unworth & unappreciated. I'm glad you're out of my sight out of my world. Cos' w/o you i'm so much more way fxcking hell happier. Your presence just sucks. This hatred will go on w me. Those 7mths of torture i'll fxcking hell rmbr. Your abhorness from me cfm up there. Thanks k?

Tio yam ka dulan is at e' back.

2011-07-18T16:32:00.001+08:00

Dnt blame me if I've got too many guy friends. Cos I believe guys are more reliable en' girls. Ey' nvr took advantage of me instead ey' treat me and pamper me like their lil' sis. Ey' took care of me. When other guys try to come close to me ey' defend for me pull away e' guy. How can I not be contented w my current life? Ey' stood up for me always. I'm glad I'm out of e' past sickening misery. Cos that jerk nvr once stood up for me. He thinks all my guy friends getting close to me is trying to take my advantage. But he nvr knew diff ppl has diff mindset. He's that kind of bastard it dsn't makes all guys e' same. He thinks all e' guys think alike w him? Lol. He's a joke that hvnt came ard his idea. He makes me cherish my friends so much. I love all of you! (; & one day he'll bound to get whack if he conti to touch other guys girls. Watch out bastard.

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2011-07-15T02:22:00.003+08:00

It's fxcking 3.13am now. Here i am enjoying e' ambience of my room. My fone can't seems to stfu. I'm having damn work tmr. Just too bored so here i am blogging. I shall jolly well hit e' sack aft this stix. Life's too great for me w my awesome friends ard me steadily. I'm glad i have em' all w me. Neverending of supportings from em' just makes my day! Haha. My job is so stressful! Fml. Intend to switch to a office job soon. But i just can't bear to leave this job. But i know retail will gets me nowhere in e' future. Just some savings for my further studies in e' future befr i get a stable job. Know what? There's this fxcking feeling on me now. Wonder it's a good or bad thing? Maybe it's a good one. Cos' i've got phobia w guys. Haha. Ey're jerks. But of cos' not all of em'! I just wanna play all e' way w/o stucking on a r/s. Enjoying bits & pieces of my singlehood. I've been in a r/s from all e' way since 13. So i shall put it to a halt now.

Goodnights earthlings. Chop chop tmr late for work. );

2011-06-24T23:59:00.003+08:00

Before i share with you guys my post. I hope you all read as if you're walking a mile in my shoe alright. I guess everything happens for a reason. & here's e' reason. Well actually i dn't feel like posting any shit that is related to him. Guess this is for memories or maybe when someone asks me what happens i could just flash this page up it saves me a bucket full of hassles to re explain to my friends. & one more thing i can't get to sleep now.

Looking back in retrospect i knew him few years back when i was still schooling. Guess that was when i'm sec2. My friend had a crushed on him telling me how cute & good looking he was. I didn't gave any twice hoot about him cos' i was attached back en'. When i first saw him he was outside my school for idk what goddamnit reason. So .. we went on w our life. I rly have no idea where we got each other contacts. We did contact in between. He brought me out to town, he did smth & bla bla bla he vomited at orchard mrt st ( okay inside info i've to keep it a secret. ) & acc me to bugis to get my stuffs. Okay so e' in between details i shall just strike it off alright. Till 090210, he just text me out of e' blue. He asked about my Olvls. He said he wanna study & asked me to guide, give him my unwanted textbooks & stuffs. I was like ' Ohh okay? ' So we started chatting about random topics. & he was such a entertainer ._. Smth just strucked me like ' Hey he's cute! ' Ha. & he asked me where am i heading e' next day. Told him i had an interview in town. I gave up this job for his sake & my friend was so furious w me for not turning up e' first day. He said he can acc me there for my interv aftermath shop w him as well cos' CNY is just ard e' corner at that time. Well so went out w him e' next day. He rode me there w his bike. Aft my interv & his shopping. He brought me to henderson. Everything starts there .. (;

I'm continuing typing but i just went blanked for awhile. Whether e' caused is that i totally forgot our memories or i'm just trying to let it slide away telling myself not to rake up e' past, k whatever caused or reason dsn't matters anymore. Lemme just snap it short i dn't feel like typing no more. With him, whatever unhappiness i've on my mind just flushed it off for that moment. I felt that i'm so happy being w him. But he somekind of broke my heart during our 'fling?' period? I told myself just let him go dn't contact him anymore. Yet he came back, asked me to be his girl. Till then. Everything went so sweet. Till, i did smth wrong? Cos' i dn't have any faith in us. Or maybe trust? I'm so fxcking afraid to love again. So i went to meet my ex. He came my house to meet my mum. I can swear this is true. He got no intention of meeting but my mum. Maybe it sounds kind of ridiculous but well its e' truth. & he just dn't believed. We fell apart & got back tgt again. Everything was so diff aftermath. We're like quarreling for almost every fortnight. Cos' i couldn't stand his possessive-ness? He always go this thinking i lied & whatsoever. Until then, i broke off w him. & realised after weeks, I couldn't live w/o him. That's when i realised his importance. I begged him back. For him i can throw away my pride & everything just yearning for him to be back w me. I nvr knew he had no intention to catch me when i fall. Came to think of it i was so dumb to think he would. Ha. I've nvr been so dumb befr in my 19 yrs of life to wait for a guy. I did everything. I did e' best i could. I neglect my family and friends. I meet him everyday. I slept at his everynight w/o fail. Even how busy i was i would push away everything just for him. Wokeup early in e' morning w him sent him off to e' bustop & off he goes for work. I'll go home & wished e' time would tick faster till his knock off timing & have dinner w him. Back to his crib & this routine continues like for almost close to 7mths. I've been living my life w fear for almost 7 mths. You knw how does e' feeling taste like? It's fxcking tormenting fxcking hell painful. Well, he flirt w ltruckload of girls outside. I knew everything i kept my mouth shut to prevent a fxcking argument w him. I swallowed real hard for everything. I told myself its worth it. As long he comes back whatever i do it's gonna worth me a life time. Cos' i thot he was e' one at that point of time whom i wanna spent my forever with. Ha. I was wrong. I realised everything i did for him was in vain. Just went down e' drain. I even tell myself it's gonna be alright aft all this mess has been cleared. Just let him flirt, play & hurt me. I owe him a payback when i hurt him so it's his time to hurt me back. Didn't knew i'm treated as a fool. I'm not gonna say what i did for him. Cos' it's over. & i dn't see any need to list it out. I dn't fxcking gain sympathy from my readers. I just wanna tell myself ' hey girl it's enough. ' I'm fxcking moving on now. I left for a fxcking reason. E' reason will nvr be ' i stopped loving you ' e' reason is: i think i've done enough, if you wanna come back you'll come back but he says we'll nvr. I even deceive myself that he'll. But fact is never. & i can even tell myself its okay whether we have no status or not as long he's by my side i'm perfectly fine.

But now i finally woke up from this beautiful nightmare. I'm fxcking moving on & i've moved. I dn't need you in my life ever again. I nvr knew i could do it but sadly i did. Ha. & i've nvr shed a single tears.

Living under tortures for 7mths. Now my new life i'll make it FTW. & real hard. My life is so much more better off w/o you. My friends are back. I'm finally freed. Freed from your horrendous nightmare. I believe in karma. You'll taste my 7mths one day. You won't understand when you've walked a mile in my shoes.

This is it. 100210 no more (;

My post is abit messy. Cos' when i'm typing i falling asleep! Shall update a proper one e' other day.

Buhbye! Sleeeeeeep now.

2011-06-16T15:18:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna be bored to death! No joke. This is e' damn reason that brought me here. See, I wasn't kidding in e' first place. So mad sleepy and bored at work now. Causing me to build stupid castles in e' air. Arghs! & I just realised this fxcken blogpress ain't working. It's not publishing my previous posts I typed w my life! I poured out all my thoughts in life & yet just vanished even w/o leaving a single alphabet in my drafts. So unkind! Just feel like quitting this job. Idk why? & my boss is gg overseas agn on nextweek & 8days are sure hell to me. Stressing about sales! Hate it. Fml please. Kthxbai.

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2011-06-09T01:03:00.003+08:00

This is a angsty post. There's this fxcker, i've nvr seen anyone else more fxckup en' him. He's e' one who dsn't wants to be tgt. Okay fine. I dn't care cos' i nvr want to wait for him anymore. & all he does is to ask me decide. I say you want you patch if not dn't patch & dn't contact not even friends. He ask me decide. SMLJ LA FXCK. I decide alrdy he dn't want en' ask me decide gam beh lan ah? All he does is push e' blames to me. He dn't dare to ask me fxck off cos' i gt tons of reason to say he's e' one who let me go. & he's forcing me to let him go cos' he can blame me all he wants. NBCB. KNN BE A MAN LA. LIKE PUSSY. CCB. & FXCKING FLIRT. Gt one girl not enough you want how many girls? Dn't always act on innocent or one nice infront of ppl yet behind another story la. & whatever i did he wants revenge. Eh hello? How old alrdy? 22 this yr alrdy still 16yrs old mindset. I sit my friend car he say i slut? He at cab touch e' girl leg en' he's what? Make ppl laugh only sia. I alrdy knw e' truth he still want infront of me lie. Lol? Dk want laugh or pekcek sia when he lie. Cos' he can cover so well. WOW. Be w your friends more fun jiu say la. Everytime dnt dare admit. Dn't want patch cos' can conti hong say only la. Dn't need push everything to me one. What i decide? Decide your lan la. & he made me go all e' way dwn to mbk to see how he flirt. He dn't dare to let his new friends knw my existence. Power.

He's e' worst i've ever met. He has a girl thinking. Why is he born w a dick?!

2011-05-27T00:56:00.001+08:00

Reminiscing. I miss my past extremely much. Can I like go back those happy moments & time just stops there? I dnt mind sleeping all e' way & nvr gonna wake up ever again but that happy dream spinning on repeat. Back on e' track. My life has nvr been so complicated befr. But I knw I'm gonna smile for e' happiness that happens on e' go instead of smiling back at memories. Memories are just memories meant to be kept. One will nvr move on if we're always burying ourselves in e' past. Dnt worry about those ppl in our past cos' there's a godamn reason that ey' didn't make it to our future. Lift your heads & let's dash across our future. I knw I'm gonna make it. I knw I can be happy, happier en' befr (;

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2011-05-18T20:55:00.002+08:00

Life, too many disastrous events gg on. One look could kill. More like a masquerade event gg on thru this journey. Wearing masks to live, fake souls. They're all my ridiculous friends. Some are good some are hell. Trying to be nice infront yet stab you on your back. I can't handle it. Traumatic yea. But well, if ey' can do it why can't i? I can handle it so well now. I'm gonna be even faker. I can fake spontaneously. I can do way much more better en' em'. Once bitten twice shy. I'm not gonna make e' same mistakes again. For trusting some scumbag. Trusting dsn't takes place. So let's pretend tgt. If you're gonna be this way, its too sad for you. Cos' karma will fxcking hit you. Let's wait. I've got time way too much time to see you fall. Let's start this game now okay?

I'm laughing helplessly at some girls who got their karma now. & i can't help but to laugh it out all to my friends. Nice one. You deserve it. Trying to break ppl up ended up hurting yourself now. You can't even handle your life well yet you wanna be that noble lady who try to handle ppl's prob? Dn't be that busybody. No one's gonna thank you for your great achievement. Great job you've done. But you failed. My time of miserable passed. It's all of your turn now. Goodluck fxcktards. Taste e' feeling of sour grapes. Nvr attempt on something cos' you might hurt yourself endlessly in e' end. & rmbr something, what you've done to others there'll be a time where ppl do it right back on your face. Try it.

2011-05-02T00:15:00.003+08:00

I love this song from final fantasy. Yea so fantasy right? Imagine if my world hurls w all those fantasy stuffs ... Wouldn't it be so great?

Work has been hell hectic for me. Working like dog! From e' previous week sat till now i've no off at all. & it's public hol tmr yet i still have to turn up ); Thot of gg for some shop till drop session but it's blown off by a text from my boss. Sadded T.T Turning in soon or else i'll be late. I'm late for almost every single day. Gosh.

2011-04-29T20:11:00.001+08:00

Sometimes somedays I ponder alot. Whether isit a mistake an accident or a meant to be? I just find it so funny. We knew each other years back but we didnt even talk at all. But despite e' fact that we didn't talk we still meet up or contact few years back for a very short period of time & it stops again. But yet out of a sudden we're tgt in a weirdest way? Did we met by accident? I nvr thot I'll ever fall for you. Its not about having a perfect relationship, but it’s finding someone who matches you and you will go through everything without giving up.. But now I'm giving up soon. Thanks for your memories. Ey're meant to be kept.

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2011-04-20T00:38:00.001+08:00

Feel like quitting my job and get back on track to studies man! Tough decision to make. Arghs. I've been granted 2 off days. No not shiok at all. Cos I'll be working for e' whole damn week starting from this weekend. Thus 2 weeks of my weekends are burn! $&@#%^* pekcek. E' boss will be away to Korea to get stocks. Like damn I'll have to work alone. Just pray that my sales will be good! & I prepared dinner for some idiot.

Kangkong!

Sambal prawns.

Steamed egg w minced pork. I knw e' egg looks weird cos' while steaming I was on e' fone w dor & I forgot to turn e' big fire to small fire. Hahaha! So it turn out to be like this ); but still taste good okay?!

Packed into lunch box & bring to him.

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2011-04-15T13:57:00.006+08:00

My life now...

Idk how shld I put those words in. It's like you've been doing smth for everyday and you're so sick of e' routine you wished it could get better but no matter how hard you try it just gets to no avail. No matter how tired I complained or rant I just continue to do it wished it could get better some day. Was it just my wishful thinking or am I too naive to believe someone will change? Just realized everything I've done was in vain. Why isit so hard to get happiness? Everything I've encountered in my life towards happiness was obstructed by obstacles. I find it so hard to salvage this damn thing when I'm e' only one who's making e' effort. Why would someone tells me he loves me when he's burying himself in e' past? Why would someone tells me he loves me when he continuously makes me cry? Hurts me w harsh words? What I've deserved you've alrdy given me. You shld have done w all those revenge and paybacks. I dnt owe you a living. I'm just someone w feelings. Why can't you understand all these shit stuffs you've made me undergo? It's enough I guess. Stop torturing me. It's fxcking pain. Fxcking tormenting. Yes I was wrong in e' past but over e' times i've realized all my mistakes. I've changed so much to fit into you everything in details. Trying to accomodate my timings into yours. Done everything I could. But it was nvr enough. I dnt think e' only reason was you not forgetting e' past. Was it just an excuse? Even everything you've done behind my back I could give up my pride to forgive you. As long you come back. I can ignore those things you did I could love you over again w/o raking up anything in e' past. I knew things outside you did but as long it dsn't comes into my ear I can pretend so well for our happy ending. Why can't you? Those words you said to me slit over my heart. It's excruciating pain. You're not me you won't understand. I'm so dumb to even tell myself, it's okay for all e' hurts you've given me. It's okay how many girls you had outside. I keep telling myself it's okay it's okay! As long you've played finish you knw your way back it's OKAY?! But this is not e' way! You said you won't come back anymore. I'm tired of asking you to be back. & yet e' next moment you told me we won't knw what's gonna happen in e' future? So what now? Are you dragging my time? Or you're just used of it that i'm always by your side? When you've found someone new you'll just throw me aside?

I dn't even dare to fxcking go outside your sch to fetch you cos' i'm afraid you dn't want ppl to see us tgt. You walked so far away from me as thou you dk me. There's once you dn't even want to let your classmate see us tgt in e' morning i've e' walk e' other way to avoid. Everytime you'll walk w me till you meet till your friends yet that day? Lol. I tried to make all e' times just to be w you. But you dn't even make any effort. I dn't even like studying. But bcos' of you i went to register for e' damn course. You told me you're studying alone, i just wanted to acc you. Yes i knw it's diff course. But you dn't even seems to want me to enroll for e' same course as you. So instead i went to register e' other courses. I was so upset when it's diff venue but yet you've got that smile on your face. End up someone told me you're studying w your friends. & you wanted was revenge. I did something unintentionally & you just wanted to do it back to me 10x more worst. You went to e' club took pictures w girls. Touched e' girl in e' cab. Text w girls when i'm beside you, i've to act like nth happen. Lol? I hvn't been sleeping at home all these while just to be w you. Maybe it was my fault, i'm too stupid? If you still wanna continue play, flirt ard or what. Can you just tell me? Stop making me whirling in a dilemma. I dn't play mind games. Idk what's gonna happen next. Idk what text i'll get from you next. I can't handle all these heartaches. Maybe it's time for me to get away from you. Cos' there will nvr be an ending. I dn't need any part time ppl in my life. You dn't come & go as you like. I dn't have that many friends like you. Idk who to turn to everytime you gave me sudden attacks. I'm not like you, text me say dn't contact yet e' next day club w you friends. I dn't even want to ask you things to knw e' truth. I rather you lie to me en' to hurt me w e' truth. Stop torturing me.

I dnt think I shld wait for something impossible to happen anymore. I give up.

You say, that you've always been true. Looking in your eyes, I see you lie. You're trying hard to hide that. There someone new you found and, you want me to believe that you still care. How can you hurt me this way. Everything I knew was loving you. How could you try pretending. Your love was never ending. Now you can't even say that you will stay. How could you say you love me. When you would go and leave me. How could you make me hurt so bad. When I have loved you more than anyone can do. Can't believe the pain. That I'm feeling now because of loving. I can't seem to understand. How can love me so unkind. Still you broke my heart. Despite what I've done Still my love was not enough. Though I given you my all..

As long as you're happy i dn't mind. If you still want to contact me we'll still be contacting. If you dn't want me anymore. I'll just go. I'm so tired of fighting.

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2011-04-03T01:12:00.001+08:00

Bla bla bla, very funneh. I learnt it from my lil' bro. E' way he says it is so cute! He's always that precious of mine (; & yea I'm gonna revive my blog soon. How soon? As soon as my fringe is long! Aha. I can't stand taking pic w my cmi short fringe. Went down to help out Gillian's flea that held out @ Scape! It's super hot over there & everyone can't stop complaining it's so hot! Sweat like hell. Bought a mouse and ring at e' flea. No clothes )); sad case! & I'm officially sick again. Like WTF. Told all of you my sb steady friend, flu. Cfm come visit me almost every mth. Powerpact right? But fxck you flu I hate you. Go away! K I'm gonna sleep. Hope e' 2 tablets of panadol flumax that I popped helps. Nights earthlings! Toodles.

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2011-03-22T22:47:00.001+08:00

I whipped up 2 dishes for my family today. It's meant to be a simple one. Mum is too lazy to cook or to pack food from nearby. So i did e' job! It was leftovers from e' fridge. Aha! & my v nice neighbour of mine gave me e' whole pkt of onions instead of 1 which I requested. Although e' outcome dsn't seem too appealing but it taste good k! Hahaha. K no more self praising. E' simple dishes are tomyam fried rice & mushroom cheese omelette. I knw e' combination are kind of weird but my bro dsn't eat spicy stuffs so e' omelette is for him. Why tomyam fried rice?! Cos I've been craving for days for this which I had at cityplaza. Their tomyam fried rice taste heavenly! Pictures do e' talkings.

Lemongrass! V impt for tomyam dishes!

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2011-03-20T04:12:00.003+08:00

All Souled Out.

Ph on a fri night & titanium aftermath. Fri songs no nice lo ); Mood spoilt when we're at ph & that cb keep blame me. Knn. You think i want de meh? Also no choice what. I'm having hangover this afternoon when i'm awake. Damn. Drunk = drama. Recalling back i just find it so funny & ._. ! & went to have curry fish head at night. Damn shiok ah! Lol. & i slept my sat away just like that ); Tmr's interv at tpy. Doubt i'll be able to wake up on time tmr. Cos' it's 4am plus alrdy. How?!

No pictures ..

& i miss that point time when we drank 3days straightat 99 - Nana, Bq - Resort, Oracle. Miraculously i wasn't drunk for drinking marathon. But ytd jitao was drama la. Wtf. Damn ps.

2011-03-17T02:32:00.008+08:00

Hi. It's been so longggg! As usual boredom brought me here. & having nth better to do i went to edit my blogskin. I'm like getting lazier & lazier from time to time. Arghs! Oh ya did i mention i went for rebonding & a haircut?! It shortens so much esp my fringe. & to my dear hair, please grow faster i'll pamper you w lots of treatment every now & en'. Puh-leaseeee? *Watery eyes*

Since i've got nth to say just gna spam it w pictures that are taken quite some time ago.

Seems like i missed out my bday' post! It's not any celebration though. I didn't want to celebrate my 19th. I just went to e' club to have some fun & didn't expect e' surprise of cake.

I like e' sweet taste!

@ Nanaaaaa. Great that i'm not drunk aft all e' crazy blowings. LOL! I knw my dresscode for that day was ._. It was so last min!

2011-03-01T03:04:00.001+08:00

All I can say is.. My blog is fxcking dead! Why am I so lazy?! I'm so lazy to even bring my dig cam out to snap. & my iPhone 3gs takes terrible pics. Time check - 3.17am. I'm awake at this random timing which I hate e' most. I got up to pee & I can't get back to slp anymore. I'm on his bed blogging thru my fone now. & you knw what's e' damn thing? I'm so famished now! ); i wanna chunk in so many foods & gobble em' up now! Gna upload a few piccas.

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2011-02-21T12:16:00.003+08:00

I'm such a loser. I didn't achieve anything till now, i'm 19. It has been 19 years. I drop out of school when i was 15. I regretted gg in NVSS. E' people i met there screw my entire life up. Be it love life, school mates, teachers & even e' principle. I fxcking hate em' & e' whole part of my sec sch journey. It should be a fun one but e' teachers & principle are just crap stuffs! I can't go to school in peace everyday with em' prejudicing me always. I spent my sec 2 life either detention or suspension. & e' fxcking vice principle even ask me not to go school, only when i feel like studying en' i'll have to go back. E' principle fxcking hell ask me to get lost. FML. Was wondering, if i didn't enter NVSS but other schools i could have graduated from poly this year. But there's one thing i never regretted was some of e' friends i get to know there. I'm just ranting every single day on my twitter how my life is in a chaos. I think its time to learn something new. Its time for e' start of a new journey of my life. To do myself proud. I just find my life rather fxck up. I shouldn't think of dying. But it's e' only way to ease e' fxcking pain. Would anyone bother to care if i'm gone forever? Some friends are just friends no more en' that. I can treat you double nice & i'll do everything to e' extreme for em'. But nobody appreciates. Why ey' always take things for granted? If you can't do e' same thing like how i treated you dn't expect me to treat you like how i did before. It's not i dn't fxcking care about em' but when i'm down i dn't even knw which one to turn to? My mind spinning all kinds of thoughts ' will ey' ans my call? are ey' free? am i disturbing em'? ' End up i'm always alone. It's like so meaningless. All of em' are e' same. Actually i dn't blame em'. I try to understand em' i try my best to solve their problems for em'. But it really hurts to see being unappreciated. Just FML hard!

For every love life e' conclusion is just disappointment. I'm not gonna let anyone enter my life & take my smile away ever again. Love is just a word but there's no one to define e' real meaning behind it. Screw all e' guys who made me cry like there's no tmr. & i nvr really knew how strong am i until being strong is e' only choice left for me.

I'm done with my rants. KTHXBAI.

2011-02-17T07:09:00.001+08:00

I love foods! I'm too bored. So I'm gonna post all e' foods I've been eating these few days k? I'm drooling now. Slurps* basically e' money I spent on foods are much more en' my clothes! My hobby eat eat eat & of cos' shopping. Lololol. K gonna end this post I'm so hungry now! I rmbred huiying told me before 能吃是福? Not sure if I used e' correct 'fu' anot?!

& I'm loving my new bag & wallet! E' bag is from my dad & e' wallet is from Lewis. Both are my bday present! Hehe.

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2011-02-15T05:52:00.001+08:00

Valentines Day. How's your 14th feb spent w your loved ones? I had an awesome one with him. It's not e' day that made it special but it was him that made everything great & worthwhile. Even if it's just a simple dinner & roses. I'm so surprised when I saw him holding it on his hands. It's like how silly we could fought so hard ytd but e' next day we're back to normal. Thanks for e' effort made you still went out w me despite you're feeling unwell. I had an awesome Val! What about all of you? (;

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2011-02-08T21:15:00.003+08:00

If only i got a choice, i wouldn't kill you. I'll stab myself to death infront of you. Cos' only when i'm dead you'll be happy & there you'll start to think how things should be like. & there you'll start to understand me just a lil' & see e' changes in me. You threatened me w death, you thought me all these. I'm telling you back.

FXCK YOU HARD & YOUR FXCKING BRAINLESS PHILOSOPHY.

It's not ppl dn't wanna understand you, you didn't even try to understand ppl so dn't fxcking blame ppl for not understanding you. Wake up your fxcking idea.

2011-02-08T02:35:00.003+08:00

My Life Story.

It's gonna be wordy, mind you.

I'm too bored. So it eventually brought me to blogger.com to update this rusty space of mine where i plant my memories.

I'm 19. Well, no big deal. I just realised time is running out. But i'm glad i'm still young. I often rant how much i hate my life & how my life sucks compared to e' others. But i'm still contented. E' best part that keeps me gg on is my mum. No words can describe how much i love her & how grateful i had got her. She's e' best living thing on earth, i swear! She stood by me throughout e' whole journey of my life. She's e' bestest of e' BEST. If there's a next life, i would still wanna be her daughter. She'll be e' only one i'm willing to sacrifice anything or everything for her. I love you, mummy!

But on e' other hand, my life wasn't as great as how i thought. It was a catastrophe compared to a disaster. I failed to handle situations. I suck at this. So FML. I hate myself for still breathing. How much i envy others happy families, their happy love life, their happy friends. When it comes to love. It just shoot me down. Everyone has their negative side of life. It's just how you look at it in a optimistic or pessimistic way. But no matter how hard i tried to look things in a different way it failed to keep me smiling. Everything is so haywire to me. Just dn't feel good. That's why i've been so gloomy. If only there's a sombohdee who will always be by my side. I dn't need a sombohdee to promise to solve all my problems for me but just walk thru all e' darkest obstacles in my life w me. Humans are e' same, i guess. Ey' can treat someone high up like to e' heaven. Or just treat someone low down like hell. But ey' nvr appreciate when ey're high up in e' heaven. Only when ey're banished down to e' hell, ey'll taste e' feeling. After so much typings, i just didn't get to e' main point. But it's okay. I know i'm gonna be alright. This year bday' wish is a lil' different from e' rest of e' year. I stopped myself from wishing ' Tears free everyday ' Cos' i know i'll still. It's just some crap to kid lil' girls & boys just like fairytales.

If only liquor could drown my sorrows waking up e' next day forgetting all e' unhappy scenarios in my life. I dn't mind to drink everyday till i get e' worst hangover. It's just temporary.

I missed out too much funs in my life. But i wish it was a much simpler life.

K goodnights. I'm gonna end here.

2011-01-17T12:10:00.003+08:00

14/1/11, e' day i fell so hard. So hard so fxcking hard on e' ground. I've nvr felt like this before. I nvr went so crazy before. I nvr felt any pain when i did e' bangings on e' wall repeatedly. At that point of time i find no one. No one was there. If only Mel & Adrian was here. I was dying alone, there's this person who was so heartless. Left me here went to e' club with his friends. Seeing those pictures so happy he smiled, he didn't feel anything. He said he feels fxcking upset. E' pain can nvr be compared to mine. He got his whole bunch of friends there. I'm just alone. Those texts he said he'll be there. He nvr fail to be there for me. Those were lies. Fxcken lies. I was too stupid. Stupid to fall in love. When i didn't love him enough, he ask why didn't i love him enough. When i love him, so what did i get? I nvr expect anything. Just a simple love life. But it wasn't enough. So tell me, what for love someone? If i didn't love him enough, i wouldn't went crazy that night. I wouldn't even bother if he's gonna jump. I wouldn't really felt how cruel love feels like. Thanks to you. I finally understand i really shouldn't love a person with all of my heart. I think it's enough. E' tears can't stop, e' scene can't stop replaying. I'm so tired. What did i deserve all these? If only i didn't met you. I'll nvr forget that day. This will go on with me, this hatred will go on with me. I'll nvr forget. Cos' i know a good turn deserves another. & a bad turn deserves another. So fxcking pain. Maybe this is a lesson. A great lesson that i learnt to eventually make me let go. Nothing can be mended anymore. It just happens. It does not happens for a reason. It happens cos' i can finally see your true colours.

Now i understand i can nvr be compared to a club. If only it was me. You'll be 100x more crazier en' me. Cos' it isn't you. You dk how fxcking pain it feels.

I'm too stupid. Those ppl out there treated me like heaven why didn't i even bother em'? Yet i'm being treated like a piece of shit. Only when you're alone you'll think of me.

In 2010, meeting you was nvr a great thing now. It's my biggest regret.

I swear, i'll nvr love anyone w all of my heart again. E' nightmare has just begun.

2011-01-11T17:14:00.002+08:00

Just bcos' ..
someone flirts with you, doesn’t mean they like you.
someone likes you, doesn’t mean they want to date you.
someone dates you, doesn’t mean they love you.
someone loves you, doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you.

Some girls are just so naive to believe that guys are so simple. & some girls are slut enough to thinks that guys who flirts w em', likes em'. N-A-I-V-E! Stupid girls. I can't stand some girls who come over telling me that guy flirts w her likes her. In my mind i'll be telling myself ' She's stupid ' ._.

2011-01-02T07:49:00.002+08:00

Oops. I'm a day late in this space! Happy New Year everyone! How's your new year spent?! I spent my new year at so many places. Blast! & finally after 3yrs i saw Fiona at Amber. & e' worst part was waiting for cab! Omgosh. Same like last year. It was like hell. All cabs either on call or busy. Asses. Was 2010 a bad year? Can't help to agree with it. Hope 2011 would be better & i can be happier. I guess i'm better off alone. Things are destined. Ha, people often enters my life in e' sweetest entrance & exits by e' toughest doors. I always built a wall against people to see who're e' real ones who care enough to break it down. Nonetheless, there isn't any. By typing this post i feel like crying. My tears are always falling so easily. I promised myself not to cry every year. Tried so many attempts but to no avail. Honestly speaking, who'll always be there? In e' end i'm still alone standing. I felt that my life are filled with miseries. Just when i thought those people could be a part of me & play a important role in my life, left me one by one. Why humans dsn't seems to understand? If you can't handle me at my worst you definitely dn't deserve me at my best. I've got so many things to say, but i kept everything nicely within me & e' next moment deleted it by my mind. Ha, felt so stupid. Wanted to say tons of stuffs, when it comes to e' situation everything just vanished. Is this a good or bad thing? Maybe i should try to say everything out that will make people understand. But what's e' use? Everyone's selfish. Nobody will think their in e' wrong. It's just my wishful thinking to think that people will understand. I shouldn't be angry so often, it causes me to lose sixty secs of happiness. So what for? Someone always say ' dn't treat someone as a priority when you're just treated as an option? ' I guess i'm e' option never e' priority. I hate everything about 2010, except meeting you. It was e' best part of 2010. Hope e' same goes to you too. Happy moments till then on 1-1-11. I'm gonna leave everything in e' lurch. Only bringing happy memories with me on e' road ahead of 2011. Just hope that you'll be happy, forever (; No matter how tough my road will be in e' future, i'm still gonna wipe of my tears & continue this journey ahead independently. Always e' last man standing.

Maybe i should just be like this song, 寂寞寂寞就好? Haha. That's when i know i'm e' best.

2010-12-14T03:02:00.002+08:00

I'm bored. So i came to blog. & i'm sleepy. But idk why i dn't feel like sleeping. Arghs. & i'm so angry. Super angry. Angry till my room's door spoilt! I slammed so hard till e' lock came off & it can't be fixed on my own cos' e' thing broke. & this makes me even angrier! I yell until ... i think my neighbours heard. I hate my temper. Only my mum can tolerate my nonsense. Came to think of it, i feel i'm so lame. Like srsly L-A-M-E. E' reason i'm so pissed of is cos' of my fringe. Cos' of e' stupid hairstylist cut off my side long fringe. & it became B-A-N-G-S now. WTF?! I hate bangs! I told her i wanna keep e' length of my side fringe & ask her not to snip it off. And my fringe looks so straight now like ah hai sia. Many ppl says it looks okay but e' fact to me it's terrible! Shouldn't have let her cut. So e' next day i went dwn to another salon to re cut again w Lewis. I nag & nag & nag to him until he keep laugh. Idk why he thinks so funny but to me i very pekcek! Pekcek until hais. I nth to say to him anymore. I knw in his heart he cfm ' Wah heng she nvr niam anymore. ' It looks better now but its still so horrible! Idk how long do i've to take to grow back lo ); Damn e' hairstylist who claims to knw how to cut yet e' outcome was BANGS! Omg. Kkkkkkkk. Got to stop ranting. But i really super pekcek lo! So straight ley now waliew. Hais!

Oh X'mas is round e' corner. One day gonna pass just like that. Feels like 09' & this year time flew so fast. Dn't feel like celebrating X'mas. Whenever its X'mas i'll be so excited celebrating it. This year like no X'mas feel lo. LOL. & my bday' is coming! & dn't think i'll be celebrating it also. 19yrs old celebrate for what.

Gonna hit e' sack real soon. I need to work alrdy. No more slacking. I feels i'm so fortunate lo. My mum dsn't wants me to go out & work. Hahaha! Whenever i work she'll like ' Huh, dn't la i also nvr in need of money ); ' Hehe i love her so much. But still, i'll work. Cos' i knw i'll need to & not depend on anyone.

Shucks. Nights bitches.

2010-12-08T00:48:00.002+08:00

Time flies. It's dec alrdy. A year is gonna pass just like that. When i was young i yearned to grow up. But when i've grown up i wished i was that young lil' girl back then. What should i do now? Study? Go for courses? Or work? Life's such a bitch for us to make so many decisions.

2010-12-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

Can't be bothered with my blog srsly. All my pics are in my fone & my blogpress is giving me a hard time to upload. It can't be published everytime with long post & pics ); But miraculously it published today w this short post! See, crazy nutcase. Short updates! I've been gg everywhere & anywhere but i didn't blog, twit or foursquare it. & i'm sick. Down w terrible flu & cough. Both of this damn thing nearly killed me. My nose is swollen ); Can i recover fast fast?!

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2010-11-20T05:43:00.003+08:00

You're amazing, just e' way you are. If you love someone dn't change anything about em' (;

If any guy would ever tell these to a girl, it'd be so sweet.

I got pictures to upload. But i'm lazy );

2010-11-19T19:35:00.001+08:00

What does Unicorn mean?

Unicorns symbolize innocence, purity of heart and and primal perfection. Where unicorns played, the land was said to be in eternal springtime. The creature's horn was believed to have vast magickal power including the ability to negate poisons ,bring peace, gentleness, courage, inner wisdom and healing. The Unicorn is depicted with the lion's tail and the goat's cloven hooves. This symbolizes the ability to break free from bondage. The additional image of a broken chain implies that, once free, the creature cannot be captured again. Most importantly, freedom.

I think i'm too boliao & went to googled it.

2010-11-10T04:45:00.004+08:00

I'm too free now! Shall upload some of e' pics we took in Marina Bay Sands. We're at tower 3. 47st floor.

Hehes. So cute!

Last day, checking out.

2nd time stay. Tower 3. 51st floor. This time round my face is a total goner. I wore my specs due to my infected eye. & w/o makeup.

Yay! E' balcony.

But e' view .. Zz.

Like a retard ownself singing bday' song to him.

Make a wish.

2nd cake.

Supper.

Still hungry so we ordered McDelivery in e' hotel. Lol.

It was really fun there! I love those times spent w him it's so beautiful. Love you always. Time to tuck in. It's 6.17am nw. I'm gonna die ltr.

2010-11-04T03:24:00.003+08:00

Find all these photos are so sweet! But my face cramped );

2010-11-03T01:55:00.003+08:00

I hate starhub. Wonder why ey' took such a long time to pick up calls. Has been calling for hours & it finally pick up. & e' person didn't activate my mobile num. on time. Like i still can't make outgg calls after 2 bloody hrs. It's been like 3 or 4 hrs yet i still can't call out. Made a call to starhub again, as usual waiting & waiting finally it got thru. & realised e' damn operater in e' morning didn't activate my line. Wtf ._.

I love this song so much!

I wanted to update something. But.. Just to post here to remind myself. No one can be trusted. Even e' closest person you think she/he may be trusted. You'll nvr knw one day what she/he'll do to you. Fxck all these. I'm not gonna trust anyone anymore. No one is ever worth e' trust.

Well actually life's simple. But bastards ard me made me fxcking hard to live. I dn't owe anyone a living! No one dies a virgin cos' life fxck us all. When people dn't knw me hates me & i like that cos' that's when i know i'm e' best.

2010-11-02T06:26:00.001+08:00

This is gonna be a belated post. Happy birthday baby on 1st nov. He's 21 alrdy. Sounds old huh? Lol. Celebrated his bday' at his house w his friends & relatives on e' 30th which is a advance one. Aft his celebrations out w his friends w Renata & Serene for movie ' You Again ' at Cathay. As usual, I fell asleep while watching. Damn! Why do I always fall asleep while I'm in e' theatre?! On e' 31st baby & I checked in ' Marina Bay Sands ' again! I'm a happy girl! Lolololol. This time round our room got a balcony. But e' view ..... Construction sites ._. He had 2 diff mini cakes. One w a lighted candle one w/o. I dnt have a lighter w me. So we cut e' 2nd cake aft getting one at marina sq. I feel so retarded singing bday' song alone to him ._. I didn't makeup for e' day at Mbs. My left eye having infection. Like damn w/o lenses I'm nt gonna makeup. And baby hope you enjoyed your bday' & e' 2 gifts I gave you! K, gonna turn in now. I'm having a terrible headache and backache. Zz! Nights world.

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2010-10-29T23:09:00.001+08:00

I'm so tired of my life. Can i just die?

2010-10-28T02:26:00.002+08:00

Khon neung khao chang di kap chan cha ting khao long ya ngai? Khon neung khoi thing pai tae rak mai khoei chang hai. Chan mai chai chao ying chak nai, ko khong tong leuak sak thang.

2010-10-28T01:40:00.004+08:00

Greatest Gift God Ever Gave Me.

Searching high & lows for it. I found it when i was 15. But god took her away from me making us islands apart from e' 7 seas few years ltr. I miss her more en' words. I bet everyone does too. She's e' only one friend, i call her my soulmate who would stand by me in whatever shit i've been thru. Siding me thru every obstacles not on neutral taking two sides with bitches that tried to tore me apart. Being there for me 24/7. When i say 24/7 i really meant 24hrs a week. She never will let me taste e' feeling of lonely. With her, i am nvr alone. We're tgt almost everyday, we did almost everything tgt. A call from me, she'll rushed down to my side. I swear, she rly did. When i cry, she would cry with me. When i'm mad, she would stay quiet to listen. When i'm angry, she would make sure to break e' limbs of those people who made me flare up. She stood up for me when people trying to talk bad about me. She understand me from top to toe. She knew i've got a really bad temper, but she nvr once blames me for that unlike others. She knows each & every minute of my emotions changed. When i'm happy. Or when i'm down. She knew every sadness hidden behind of my each laughs which nobody could tell. Trying my best to stay happy infront of her, a phrase from her broke me down thoroughly by saying ' Stop putting on a strong front, i knew your not happy at all can you please tell me what's wrong by not making me worry? ' Tell me, where else can i find someone like her? Why do i miss her so much? Maybe i relied on her too much. Now she's gone, i must learn to grow. She's just like a mum to me. She took care of my everything. That's why i called her my Mummy. She's Melanie (; That's what i call, true friend.

Dear god, please take great care of her on my behalf. She's e' bestest thing on earth & of cos' Adrian Toh.

2010-10-25T05:50:00.003+08:00

Marina Bay Sands.

I got hundreds over of pictures to upload. & this place is just more en' awesome to describe! For e' 2 days spent there with just baby alone is superb. Just dn't bear to leave e' room even if there's only a entertainment to entertain us, e' TV. But he keeps dragging me out of e' room to Marina Sq. & e' Skypark's scenery is drop dead gorgeous furthermore e' swimming pool? I wished i could stay there longer. But its just 3D 2N. Shld be more en' contented. Ha! Can go my fb to browse thru e' pics. I'm rly lazy to blog over here. I think i'm giving up blogging. But if few years dwn e' road i might blame myself for my laziness cos' i couldn't read or look back my memories alrdy if i didn't post. Lol!

Gdnights all.

2010-10-25T00:13:00.002+08:00

Why does it seems i'm crying always when i'm alone. I'm so lazy to blog. But other en' my blog i dn't feel like turning to anyone to drown my sorrows. How does it feels to be me? How does it feels to live my life? How does it feels to cry like a bitch? There's so many things you guys dn't understand. We tend to look at different things differently. Be it sad or happy. When you see things in a more optimistic way things would be happier. But what if? What if we're alone?

2010-10-03T07:08:00.002+08:00

If you're so contented with your life what for interfering into other people's affair. You wouldn't want e' others to do it to you too. I wouldn't hate. Cos' it would only bring down myself. It means weakness.

2010-09-27T06:43:00.003+08:00

It's 6.51am now. Here i am having sleepless night at baby's house agn.

Wonder why some ppl are born with such selfish heart. You're fxcking selfish! Dn't always ask me to give you my time yet you can't even spare me a min of yours. FXCK IT! This is gonna be e' last time. Buay ps one sial. Dn't think e' earth revolves ard you only. There's still billions of ppl out there in e' whole wide world! Knn. Buay gia lang dulan only. Go reflect upon yourself. If you're reading this & when your heart skip a beat. YES. THAT'S YOU! Mother fxcker! & stop your copyings la. Be original. Irritating! Arsehole! & dn't always think when i didn't tell you anything means ppl out there thinks you're fine. But fact is, ey' dislike you! I won't tell you, cos' i wanna see you can yaya how long. (; Suck it up la.

Yes. I knw no ones perfect.

From today onwards. I'm gonna treat different ppl differently. I will change my attitude towards you! & treat those who appreciates me more. Kthxbai.

2010-09-19T07:10:00.001+08:00

I'm very lazy to update my blog. So I shall just chunked all e' piccas up tgt. Life's been great for me. Esp w baby ard. But sometimes he just makes me wanna give him a flying kick! Have been blackshot-ing w this noob for days. He's a real noob! He keep disturbing me. But I can knifed better en' him! I even took revenge for him. Hahahahehehe! It's 6.57am nw. He's blackshot-ing nw & I'm on his bed blogging. There's nth else I can do. Guess I won't be blogging about my whereabouts daily. I twitting it! Lol. Shall just blog about my weekends. That's all. Fri, steamboat w baby. Afterthat went cine, marina sq & cosy bay. Back ys. To np mac. En' homed. Sat, caught movie 'Heartbreaker' w baby at cine. Before that we were dota-ing at emax. Our seafood platter & waffle icecream!

Steamboat agn at baby's place on sat.

My favey 'Shabu shabu' !

Before slping.

Cinammon melts & double choco. Yumms!

Cosy bay.

天天火锅 on fri.

My current hair colour!

Barrage.

Me & Jun acc Dor down to her bf's ord parade.

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2010-09-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

I'm sick. & my bitch is at genting now enjoying herself w her loved ); Poorthing me sick in Sg' ! Lol. I'm like having all e' fever's symptoms. But i just dread gg to e' doc. Well, e' last time i consulted a doc was ages ago. Arghhhhhs! When can i recover? I'm like sick for every 3-4mths. This is crap man! Arshole.

Kkkkkkkkk. Logging off. Sayo.

2010-09-13T05:44:00.002+08:00

I feel so terrible now. Headache, sorethroat, flu, stomachache & worst still i'm hungry. I want to eat my medi! But i can't eat my medi before food. & there's nothing to eat at baby's house. He's sleeping soundly. Yet i wokeup in e' middle of e' night. This is e' worst feeling ever ); I'm so gonna bored die. & suddenly i miss mummy taking care of me when i'm sick, my kitchen's fridge full of junk foods & ofcos' my bed! Hais. Time please tick faster.

2010-09-07T00:50:00.003+08:00

You Set E' Rules, I'll Make Sure To Play E' Game Well.

My baby is sick. Poorthing him. Went kbox on sun with baby, Dor & Jon. Sang till 6am. While we're out of cine it's still drizzling. I was thinking OMG. Helmet cfm wet, ltr my hair cfm wet. But lucky only a lil' wet. Lol. But reached home my legs are wet & so dirty. & i'm back at my own crib. I've got nth to blog. Goodnights.

I'll never be e' same, if we ever meet again.

2010-09-04T02:11:00.002+08:00

Lack of updates. Was busy with work, roadshows. Currently working at Comex Suntec. Shall update a short entries with some pics.

Caught step up 3d with these people.

Finally a proper one ._.

When we first step into e' cinema it was all empty. Filled with just us. So ey' went crazy in e' cinema.

7th is e' day i'm gonna be a rich woman. Hahaha! Pay day! Please dn't ask me out people. LOL! Oh yea, & went to semb to visit Weichye with baby. Hope he get well soon! & finally got a time to talk craps with Pjp & Renata at her house. Hehs.

Roadshows are fxcking tiring. Standing for 10hours a day for 1 week. I'm gonna die. My legs & back are aching. & i'm hungry now.

Srsly, i shall just shut my blog. I almost forgot every places i've been to & i'm so lazy to upload pics to my comp. Damn me.

2010-08-29T20:22:00.005+08:00

I wanna fly! This spells freedom.
I'm starting work tmr alrdy. Finally got time to blog. Got to blog before e' hell starts. Lol! If not i doubt i have e' time to do so.

Thurs, went np to slack awhile before meeting baby.

Fri, went Plaza Sing' meet up Aloy, weichye & co. Finally saw Renata's jiaobin. E' guys had their guys talk & us? We walked round & round inside Ps like 2 retards. Lol! Gossip till siao. Caught 'Step Up 3' I was freezing thruout e' movie & i fell asleep! Dn't understand why e' hell i'll be asleep for every movie! Arghs.

Sat, went tpy with baby's & co for Pjp bday' celebration. Happy 20th bday' ass! Hehehes. En' baby brought me to jetty. My cam died on me. So i took lousy quality pics with my fone );

Sun, meet Pjp & Darick at 925 with baby for chicken rice. En' went np to see cutie Quinel swimming! Cute si le la! ;D & i'm back at baby's crib. He's booking in soon.

I should really stop singing k. I've been spending all my $8 on kbox! I've forgotten when i went kbox. It's like i've been there twice in a week or so. Follow me on twitter instead or coming to my blog! Cos' i twit everyday with my Apple family hor Renata, pjp!

2010-08-29T20:21:00.002+08:00

That's your problem, bitch! ._.

I wanna update my blog. But my pics are in my cam. No cable!

2010-08-25T04:16:00.002+08:00

Hvn't been updating my blog for such a long time. Seems dead. So happy that Panasonic roadshow ended! Haha! That 1 week was hell for me. We stood from 11am to 10am & our face are like zombies. It's a nice job but with some fxck up people over there but e' courts people are fine. We're like hired not to work, but to play & chat all day over there. We've been lodged complaint by Panasonic people. Lucky we're working part time not full time. But overall, its fun! Hehes. I like! & my baby surprised me on e' 2nd last day of work by popping out beside me when i'm knocking off. Still lied to say he wanted to fetch me off work but he got to meet his friend ._. Stupid ass. Last day of work Dor, Shuwen & me went kbox to sing! Must enjoy abit after 1 week of hardwork. Hahaha! Oh ya, i had my fringe cut. I looks like a 16 year old xmm now ); Okay, gotta hit e' sack soon. My stomach growling. I'm hungry! Like again. Gonna enjoy & rest for this whole week. E' real hell part is next week roadshow at parkway parade. E' journey to & fro there should be OMG. Damn far bodoh! Will update photos e' other time. Plain lazy srsly.

2010-08-16T03:15:00.001+08:00

Hi everybody. It's 3am alrdy yet I'm still not yet asleep. Starting work ltr in e' morning. For e' sake of money ._. arghs! Its a roadshow at tamp mall. Im working under panasonic. Come find me ah! Lol. My working attire cfm sb cock. I nvr wore covered shoes except for school days! Arghs. Somemore matched w long jeans. & i fxcking hate long jeans. Macham sampat only. Hais! So lazy to blog. Seems like blogging has been a hassle to me unlike in e' past. Meet baby at town aft my briefing. Walked ard & caught ' Last Airbender 3d ' total waste of money. This show is super fake & lame. As usual lame shows made me fell aslp in e' theatre. E' next day went cine agn for movie with baby, Aloy & Pk. Caught ' Love In Disguise ' I fell asleep agn. Lol! I wanna watch ' Au Revoir Taipei ' ); but keep no chance watch! & bought this converse shoes for my work. Heartpain when baby splurge on this.

Sakae sushi.

Goodnights!
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2010-08-13T03:56:00.005+08:00

Trust No Man, Fear No Bitch.

Hi everybody. It's 4.16am now & i can't get to sleep! I'm having briefing at 10am ltr at Aljunied. E' waking up process ltr should be like hell. ); Got a job thru Shuwen with Dor. Starting work soon!

Wed, woken up by Dor's call. Last min went out to meet her & Shuwen at 925. Sudden suggestion to go kbox. So went to sing! My voice was horrible that night! Damn my cough. Sang till 6am went home, bathed & changed head to Shuwen's house with Dor. & went out for interview at Aljunied & parkway. After that, something spoiled my mood terribly! All thanks to that fxcker! Dn't feel like mentioning it, pekcek only. En' back 4head eat & slack. Cool. I didn't sleep for 2days & yet i wokeup so early today. Miracle.

Uploads thru my fone. Shuwen's dog, Doudou!

Mummy bought me this super chio fossil watch which i've been eyeing for a long time! My mum's still e' best!

I feel like cutting my fringe! Cos' e' process of growing long is a bitch! Arghs. Shld i sleep? Or dn't? Contradicting! Dk what to wear somemore ._.

Counted e' money, but it seems not enough! Hais. Gonna look for another part time job again soon!

2010-08-12T04:03:00.005+08:00

Happy Moments Never Lasts.

It always ended so fast. So many mixed emotions right now. Can't find any right words to say. I dn't feel like telling it to any of my friends, i feel so irritated. But i just felt so awful in my heart. I knew my tears would fall eventually while i'm typing this post. I always broke all e' promises i've made to myself. I swear i wouldn't shed a single tear anymore for any unhappy scene i've ponder about it randomly. But i just couldn't control it. It just flows so automatically while you're listening to a sentimental song while thinking late at night alone in your room. Flashes of unhappy events just seems to be gliding thru your mind like flipping a thousand pages book with your thumb. I just want to be happy, that's all. I dn't need money to make me feel happy. I dn't need a perfect guy to make ppl envious of my perfect love story. I dn't need circle of friends to brighten up my days with em' by my side partying or fun nights out to make me feel i'm leading a real life. These are just side dishes from our life. But what do i want actually? Why am i always so pessimistic & think negatively of my life? I've been asking so many times of myself. I feel so irritated. Have you all felt so speechless about everything & gets so sick & tired of telling people, explaining those things you never did & you never meant? Cos' e' person just wouldn't be bothered with your explainations he/she die hard would think every word from your mouth are just bullshit? Trying not to make a mountain out of a mole hill, giving in each & every time to him/her. But e' person just dsn't appreciates e' 'giving in' part & assumed you can't be bothered with e' thing that has been an issue of e' subject your have been arguing about? All you did was to apologize time & time. Talking to him.her nicely. But he/she just flares at you? Something thats stucked within me. I felt that i can't breathe for a moment but after awhile it seems fine? Restrictions, i dn't mind. I dn't mind having no friends but just you. But you always got issues with me. That made me felt that i really need my friends by my side to guide me along, sharing w em' my unhappy things. I'm a girl & every girl are e' same, ey' need to talk to my gfs. If i'm a boy, i wouldn't have to do that. Idk whats with me? It came repeatedly to me till i dn't even feel like saying anything. My tears just flows whenever i saw those texts. I loved to sing so much at kbox. But i dread gg kbox. Cos' whenever those songs i played, e' first thing i thought of is someone. I would be in a daze sometimes when certain songs are played. I hate to cry infront of my friends. Why do i have to hold back my tears when its on e' rim of my eyelid & i got to rub it away to act like i'm so fine? E' feeling just sucks so much. & i just dn't feel like bothering my friend telling em' what has gotten onto me? I find some cases are exceptional. I'm not trying to say i've got hurt so deeply. Chill, i'm not. But why some ppl just dn't understand? Ey've been telling you he/she has gotten so upset from you & e' reason. But i just suppress everything in my heart not wanting to voice out telling you i'm upset. You just dn't know anything. I dn't wanna be like a irritating fxcker telling you every small minor things to start a fight. I just dn't understand why some ppl just love each other but yet ey're unhappy being tgt? It's not that i'm not happy. I'm happy as well. I'm even happier when i see e' wide smile you gave me whenever we met & e' happiest thing is seeing you happy. Its enough alrdy. Rly enough le. Those crazy nights we played, beautiful past. It just makes me wanna cry whenever i thought about it. Telling my friends about all those beautiful days i'll smile & giggle happily to myself whenever i share w em'. I really hope that time would rewind back & stop at those happy scenarios. But happy moment never lasts! What's e' prob actually? I've been figuring out. Does e' prob lies on me? Have i not play my part well? Or you're actually sick of me? Sorry, i can never be e' perfect one in your eyes. Love me for my imperfections would turned me to a perfect person in your eyes.

Till en'. I just dn't feel like typing anymore. Ciaos.

2010-08-10T07:08:00.000+08:00

I'll give you all my love, if you dn't change a thing about e' way you hold me everynight.

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2010-08-06T00:20:00.002+08:00

Meet Huiying at my house downstairs. After that she came my house. We're talking & talking & talking non-stop!

Taken using webcam ;D

2010-08-05T06:05:00.002+08:00

Im missing you. Im waiting for your spell. Without you, my heart will fade. I'll wither if your love is delayed.

Just came back home from meeting Fangying at np. We talked all e' way non-stop from 10pm - 5am. Got so much to catch up. Lol! & ytd meet up with Fangying, Dor, Shuwen & Annabelle at Np. Gossip about so many stuffs. & Yishun is totally bored ttm! Gonna continue chasing my tvb dramas alrdy. I'm having terrible sorethroat & headache. Damn.

2010-08-02T23:39:00.008+08:00

Never Give Up As Long As There's Still A Glimmer Of Hope.

Was at youtube. Randomly typed these 2 songs on e' search bar & listen. Reminds me of those time when i was schooling. Lol? & i'm watching 泳闯琴关 on xinmsn now. Sometimes i prefer staying at home watching my vcds, enjoying my aircon, talking to mummy & watching tv. No i'll nvr get bored at home. Cos' home is e' best (;

Goodnights!

2010-08-01T23:23:00.004+08:00

Happy Bday' Chin Fang Ying! Love you sieh many.

I'm back at my own crib. For e' whole tues - sun was spent w baby. We're out almost everyday except for wed. Tues, went cine to watch ' Sorcerer Apprentice ' with baby. Wed, stayed at home. Thurs, went amk hub to watch ' Tekken ' E' male lead ' Jin ' is fxcking handsome! Went back baby's place to take our kite & to barrage for kite flying! I dn't wanna buy $2.50 kite ever again. Hahahahs! Fri, went to meet Dor & Shuwen at 925, en' went 2head slack. Afterthat baby came to fetch me went cine to watch ' Inception ' with Aloy & Pk. Sat, went vivo with baby. Caught ' Old Cow Vs Tendergrass ' Suchha' lame & funny show. & en' to henderson. Reminiscing those past. Kns! No more those heart-skip-abit-feelings alrdy. Hahas.

Noob fixing kite.

Hen mei hor?

Look at e' sky w those scary clouds.

While waiting.

Henderson.

When we reached home he kisiao & messed up my hair. Ask me dn't move cos' he wanna snap me. Crazy nutcase!

My happy days are spent happily with him. Many unhappy things happen lately, thanks baby for being there when i needed someone. Trying so hard on e' surface to act like nothing happen, but it's so difficult. Sometimes it hurts more to smile in front of everyone than to cry all alone. Nobody would understand. But i'm still happy, cos' i got this crazy guy with me!

Goodnights.

2010-07-29T15:02:00.001+08:00

Baby is nt booking in for e' whole week. So boring nw! & I'm hungry! Oh & i wanna watch SALT.

That day when I went safra, passed by yishun pond had no idea why there are so many fishes over there. Looks disgusting!

Went to eat w baby.

Fixing e' ribbon );

Caught ' sorcerer apprentice ' w baby at cine. He caught two more for me! Add in to my collection. Hehehes.

Watching ' vampire diaries. '

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2010-07-27T01:19:00.003+08:00

Somehow i miss my hair in e' past. Lols. It's not e' colour.

Partyworld just now. I think i'm kbox & partyworld regular alrdy. Keep sing & sing until abit sian le. Lol! We can meet up saying slacking in kampong in e' 1st place but suddenly say go sing. Siao one! Lols & suddenly i realised my hair colour fade again! Wtf! I dye how dark also fade. But i dn't want to dye all black! Cfm like wig lo. I must find a job soon. I'm getting lazier & lazier. Even my friends ask me out i also lazy ttvmaximum! I just dn't feel like getting out of my house & just wanna sleep all e' way. Why ah?! I think i'm suffering from narcolepsy.

I didn't know that asshole Lewis Lim can be so sweet! I just randomly told him i'm hungry on e' fone when he's in camp. He suddenly asked for my address. I was hesitating to give cos' idk what he's up to. I think for a very long time whether isit he's ordering mac for me? Cos' he asked me to order mac. But i dn't wanna ask him ltr he didn't order i'll be so paiseh & his pattern cfm will laugh madly at me! En' i test test him tell him i want sleep alrdy. He jitao call & text me say he ordered mac for me. Hahaha! But en' something made me very kanjiong cos' i dn't have a single cent with me. He paid for me. Luckily. What a sweet surprise. Maybe it would be sweeter if i didn't test him & didn't go think all e' possibilities of him asking my add! Hahaha.

Kthxbai. I'm too bored so came to anyhow blog blog. Baibai!

2010-07-25T23:23:00.004+08:00

Seconds Feels Like Hours.

My very messy room.

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Kthxbai.

2010-07-23T23:46:00.003+08:00

Hmmmmm. Seems like its been a mth or so i've nt been blogging about my life & my whereabouts. My life has been great, so far so good? Ha! Like i've always said, my blog is always my bestfriend! She listens to my stories while i rant to her. I promise myself to stay optimistic & try to look at things differently rather en' how i used to in e' past. It works a lil'. Better en' nothing? Humans are nvr contented. I find this world rather fake. Why do ppl wear a mask to live? It's just total irksome. Just be yourself! If something you laughed at or did to someone. Ever wonder someday it would happen to fall on you? I believe in karma. Live for yourself. Here are e' pics taken from my cam. It's been a real long time since I snapped like crazy.

Been donkey years since i zilian!

Taken fr my fone.

Till then. I gets lazy when I'm using my fone to blog. Cos I'm on my comfy bed nw. Half asleep. Gonna continue my sleep! Gdnights peepo. (;

2010-07-19T14:38:00.002+08:00

Caught blood pledge w baby at amk hub ytd. E' sound effect keep scares me off. For every once I got scared I grab onto his hand real hard. Lol! Aft movie went safra for bowling. En' to occ for pool. Back homed. Time check 2.33pm nw. Just woke up, & he's playing his game nw. Zz!

I'm damn hungry aft this post. & baby went 925 to pack my chicken rice for me! Hehehahahosxz. Lub lub him.

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2010-07-18T15:14:00.001+08:00

Been so long since I've done a proper update. I'm just plain too lazy. I've been gg out lately, but I forgot where I went basically. Cos whenever I reached home I'll drop dead on my bed after my shower. Ytd was so hectic. Me & pjp was e' nanny of e' day. Was so tired at e' end of e' day. It's not easy to bring babies out. Esp there are 3 of em' & furthermore we hit e' town.

Quinel v happy when Renata carry other ppl baby. Lol!

Happy bday' Esther!

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2010-07-16T21:49:00.001+08:00

Hello dark coloured hair. I'm damn pissed w blogpress, I tried to upload pics of my weekends but it keep fail.

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2010-07-13T17:32:00.002+08:00

This is e' cutest movie i had ever seen. So cute! Especially e' yellow creatures & e' lil' girl! I dn't mind watching it again. Hahas! Thumbs up. Made me laugh non-stop in e' theatre.

2010-07-11T02:53:00.001+08:00

Ccb! Blog halfway Lewis Lim come disturb me my long blog post gone! Nb stupid fone. Waste my time like srsly luh? Zz. Pekcek!

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2010-07-09T01:42:00.002+08:00

Touching ..

I cried after reading this. Its so touching. F! e' son upside dwn. He'll get his retribution from his kids one day. We should just sit there & laugh at him when that day comes. I rly can't stand ppl & hate those ppl who treat their mom in this way! So angry!

See this lame guy text ._. Sometimes i loved him alot, sometimes i hate him alot, sometimes i think he's very cute, sometimes i think he's very irritating but most of e' time he likes to make my blood vessels burst! His favourite hobby is to make me angry!

Andddddddd.. this guy is him! Ask him wear white often cos' i like him to wear white. Bcos' of this he also want quarrel w me! Nehmind, let him win.

2010-07-08T05:58:00.005+08:00

All E' Crazy Shit I Did Tonight, Those Will Be E' Best Memories.

This song is stucked in my head for 1234567 days. I keep singing to baby. I knw he feels very irritated. Cos' whenever i sing he'll ' SHHHHHHHHHHH!' LOL.

& this morning i woke up, he sent me 151 msgs! E' previous time was 69 msgs. Sotplug! I know your sms unlimited dn't haolian k!

I missed e' past. I can nvr get this feeling back.

Wo hen xi huan zhe shou ge!

Went kbox to sing till 6am. Slacked at ps, en' home sweet home. Didn't sleep at all. Cos' that asshole is booking out at 10am. He has to go back at 1pm en' book out agn ._. Went to his house to sleeeeeeeep till he book out. Cos' i knw if i go home sleep i can't nvr get up.

2010-07-05T08:07:00.001+08:00

I remember years ago, someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love. I did, I did.
And you were strong and I was not. My illusion, my mistake. I was careless, I forgot. I did
And now when all is done. There is nothing to say. You have gone and so effortlessly. You have won. You can go ahead tell them.

Tell them all I know now, shout it from the roof top. Write it on the sky love. All we had is gone now. Tell them I was happy. And my heart is broken. All my scars are open. Tell them what I hoped would be impossible, impossible, impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard. Falling for betrayal is worst. Broken trust and broken hearts. I know, I know. Thinking all you need is there. Building faith on love is worst. Empty promises will wear
I know (i know) And know when all is gone. There is nothing to say. And if you're done with embarrassing me. On your own you can go ahead tell them.

2010-07-04T06:33:00.002+08:00

Marina bay sands & marina sq. with baby. It's raining my legs are wet & we went back early. Reached home rain stopped, out agn for movie ' 9 temple ' ( not nice one ); e' ratings cheat my feelings ) at amk hub with Renata & co. E' journey to & fro was so cold on e' road! E' wind omg. My pics quality sucks. I took all with my fone. Lazy to snap w my cam cos it's easier & more convenient to upload pics from my fone. Right nw, I'm waiting for my damn hair to dry. Seems like its taking million years to dry ._.

Hi marina sands!

Helix bridge.

Ice cream waffle.

I look so ... here ._.

Miss my solo? Lol! No puking please.

Ghost.

Otw home. I ask him ride slow slow he jitao rly ride until sibeh slow zzz.

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2010-07-03T03:23:00.001+08:00

Bored. That boy is using comp, busy w his blardy game which he can play for hrs dk whats so nice to play. Also nt bs, dota or l4d ._. These pics are edited on my fone. Yes too bored that all these are overdue pics which means long long time ago. Like mths or so. Lol! Just hope tmr it'll nt rain cos' I wanna get my ass out! Gonna acc him watch his stupid anime & yucks I hate animes! Lol.

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2010-07-02T05:35:00.002+08:00

Hi! Sorry peepo. My blog just revived. Gonna spam it with peekas. Lazy to type! So just let my peekas do e' talking. Guess who is this cutiepie over here?! Baby Quinel. Went to play with her at wc's house & she's adorable ttm!

Me like this pic! Lol.

Taken at 418, while waiting for Renata & Wc to come. Off we went cine to watch ' Ip Man ' super naise.

Baby randomly bought this doggy for me.

I screwed up his room, v messy! Lol.

7am before booking in. His face like gg to die.

My artpiece! I drew using my eyeshadows. Hahasxzc.

Goodnights.

Been to many places over e' weekends. But i'v forgotten all of em' ! Lols. Shall bloggggg from today onwards.

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2010-06-30T06:35:00.004+08:00

Hi there people! This space of mine have been neglected for days or almost a week! & I'm using my iPhone to blog nw. I've not been home for 5 days! So eagerly getting back home in an hour more time to see Yi Jie! Hehs. Lewis booking in ltr, and out agn tmr. Lame! Will get back to you with more updates & peekas! Toodles.

2010-06-23T01:55:00.006+08:00

When You Love Someone, Give It All You Can & Expect Nothing In Return. If You Expect Something, This Is Not Love.

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand. I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned. I won't tell anybody. They want to push me down. They want to see you fall. Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around. I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound. Won't tell anybody. They want to see us fall. I don't need a parachute. Baby, if I've got you. You're gonna catch if I fall. Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late night and you are your own worst enemy. You'll never win the fight. Just hold on to me. I'll hold on to you. It's you and me up against the world. It's you and me.

Follow me on twitter instead. I twit more en' i blog!

Went cwp today. I bought a foundation by Revlon. I dn't trust drugstore's brand. This is my 1st drugstore foundation. I bought it cos' its recommended by Michelle Phan! & this foundation can last up till 16hrs. It's waterproof, sweatproof & oil-free! Gonna try it soon when i'm out.

Boringgggggggggggggggg! I'm hungry again! WTFML. I think my stomach got big big problem! I want eat pineapple rice & tomyam soup );

2010-06-22T03:09:00.002+08:00

When I Know Things Are Not Meant For Me, I Learn To Let Go.

I've got nth to write. Just feel like typing some words over my space. Hehs. I was woken up by Lewis' call. Made me can't get back to sleep alrdy );

Just some rantings.

At times, i wonder life just isn't fair. Sometimes, i just want those things that are happening ard me to remain intact. Cos' we'll nvr know how things might turned out if we change em'. Maybe it'll be worst? I hate myself for being vulnerable.

Till then.

2010-06-21T04:29:00.009+08:00

Happy Daddy's Day!

Oopsie! I'm a day late. Dad wasn't in Singapore he's busy working overseas & i totally forgotten about it! But still, Happy Father's Day, dad!

I'm so lazy to blog! Cos' photobucket is always taking years to upload my pics. Damn!

People around me are complaining to me that ey're being unhappy ); So, cheerup everyone! Life is too short to dwell on unhappy stuffs, just get your feet back up when things knocked you down. Try to be more optimistic. Same goes for me ya? & Dor, although times you're not there for me when i needed you so badly, but still i'll always be there for you when you need me! Xoxo. LOL! Rmbr, i'm always your listener, & a good one! Hahas.

For my weekends, it was spent peacefully. I wasn't late for e' 1st time meeting Lewis. He asked me to get my ass down under my blk in 15mins time. I waited for him close to 45mins & there he finally reached ._. He got caught for speeding. Orbi la! Ask him dn't speed alrdy. What an idiot. Everytime before meeting him my heart beats a sec faster when he's late a sec. He cannot let me have peace one. Thurs & fri was spent in yishun meeting his friends all that. On sat, we hitted town. I wanted to drop by Sephora to get my mineral foundation & nude blusher. But my blusher is OOS ); Saddening. Had our dinner at Suki Sushi & we went Cathay afterwards to catch a movie! Intended to catch ' A Team ' But e' seats are only left with e' 1st row so we caught ' Toy Story 3! ' instead. My favey cartoon movie since young! Laugh till i had difficulty in breathing. Damn nice! & i love e' dino 'Rex' & e' potato guy in e' movie. Ey're damn cute! I feel like gg into e' film & omg. Lol! Hahas. Hope there's 4 coming out! Told him ' TS3 ' cfm very nice to watch one, he at 1st like dn't believe only! & i have a list of movies waiting for me to strike it off. Sex And The City, The A Team, Despicable Me, Blood Pledge & okay i forgotten what are e' rest ._.

Old song. But i wanna cut her hair. & dye it black. She got quite a num of hairstyle in this mv, fyi e' straight bangs one. But Lewis keep say no no no ._.

Photobucket is a real bitch! I've resized all my pics. & it turns out some were resized some were not! Blardy hell. Sorry for e' uneven sized pics );

These are taken at e' roof terrace of SCAPE. There's this dn't-know-what-band performing. E' crowds are dispersing.

My Salmon Don! Yummmms.

His.

These 4 baby lobsters waste money only!

Dk what soup. Very salty, me like!

Hi everyone, i'm a idiot. Lololololololsxsxz.

Goodnights!

& i miss my highlights! ); Damn sad. Can't bleached my hair alrdy. If not cfm become grass.

2010-06-17T04:56:00.002+08:00

All I Want Is For One Guy To Prove That Ey're Not All E' Same.

I love my blog song! & it makes me happy while i'm listening to it. LOL! Was bored, so edited my blog banner. I'm hungry. I'm having headache. I'm not sleeping. I can't SLEEP!

& my mummy just opened my room's door telling me she can't sleep asking me to acc. her talk. At this hour?! LOL! What a cute mummy i have.

2010-06-16T03:09:00.009+08:00

I Dn't Want A Boyfriend, I Need A Real Man!

Tuesday.

Tired max. Went Ecp with Serene, Jun & Kic. Initially we were gg Pulau Ubin. But ey' overslept ); Had a hard time bombing Jun's fone! Arghs. Surprisingly, i was e' 1st to get up. It's always e' opp way. Lol. It's all about bus journey today. We took long rides to & fro. Butt hurts. Went there to cycle. Yay, i'm so happy that i didn't fell. Cos' i rode super slow today. Until ey' bth me. Lol! I'm not gonna 'gey kiang' & speed like as if i'm gg for a race competition when there's turns in my life ever agn. E' Pulau Ubin's incident rly carved a very unforgettable mark on me! ); So helpless that night! Stuck in e' middle of nowhere for blardy 2hrs! Walked ard east coast before gg back, wanted to chill at e' big rock on e' shore but who knows there's so many cockroaches came crawling out from nowhere made me yell & jump like a crazy woman even before we sat down. Told em' there's cockroach alrdy ); Jun still dn't believe! That time went with Lewis also have! I missed those period of time so much . Henderson wave, barrage, ecp & hk cafe!
Today pics all chui!

& bowling tmr again! Lovin' it! " Eh i got e' bowling seh anot ah?' ' Got not? Got not?' LOL! My cousin sibeh lame.

My sisters , MIA ); I miss you girls.

Have been singing this song everyday at home. & my mic is spoiled! LOUSY LOUSY! Dn't subscribe scv karaOK channel k! E' songs damn limited. Sucks.

2010-06-15T00:27:00.005+08:00

Love Me For Who I Am, Not How You Want Me To Be.

WTF! I've got so many things to rant it all out. But i got no freedom to blog, twit or even tell people! This space of mine are filled with stalkers! Irritating max. Rah!

2 hours later.

My mood is back to normal (; My appetite damn good nao. Me dk why. I just fried a pan of fried rice & its equivalent to 2plates. I gobbled it all up. I'm fxcking full! Kill me please. My tummy );

Went bowling agn! This time it was so fun! We played 3games. Idk why. My mood wasn't good in e' 1st place, but after that it was fine. I keep disturb my bro & cousin. Till ey' say 'next time dn't ask jie jie come alrdy la cos' she make me laugh until bth. ' & my fat cousin very bad keep disturb other lane's ppl by mimicking em'. Lol! Super funny.

I didn't make up much just mascara cos' i was running late!

My precious.

Hi. Ah bui.

Solo.

And and and ... idk why i'm in love with Taylor Swift songs lately (;

I'm so busying replying texts nao. Texting with Jun & Cuppy. Damn em', this hour still dn't wanna sleep! Arghs, ltr can't wake up how?! K, i think i should be e' one. LOL!

Hi, fatty. He calls me a fatty yet he's a fatty himself. He's e' reason of me becoming 49kg nao. Yet he still have e' cheek to say i'm e' reason that turns him into this fat. ._. Full of shit. Kkkkkk sorry sorry, i love you kkkkkkk. Dn't scold me. Kthxbai.

Goo-Hara. Member of a grp ' KARA ' Super love her! She's damn fxcking pretty! She's only 19. Mygosh.

2010-06-12T18:36:00.004+08:00

Weekends.

Went Cathay to watch ' Karate Kid' with Lewis , Renata & co. E' movie, naise! Finally saw Renata's princess. Omg cute si le! ;D

Ohya! Click & 'Like' her baby on e' pic!
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=125686800797062&index=1#!/photo.php?pid=4221396&id=618611126&fbid=397384116126

Renata took this pic ask Lewis eyes open big big. End up become like this.

Updates on other days.

I fell in love with this song.

Kthxbai.

2010-06-11T02:44:00.003+08:00

If Only ... ...

Wednesday.

Hitted town with Cuppy & Jun. Walked ard, & i damn regret didn't buy e' top! ); Caught ' Killer ' at Cine with em' . & this is like only e' 5th or 6th time i'm watching movie with my friends! Oh gosh! Cos' i dn't rly watch movies with my friends. Lols. E' movie wasn't that bad as what we thought in e' 1st place. Luckily my neck wasn't cramped after e' movie cos' we sat on e' 2nd row ._.

Hug hug for you okay? (;

Outdated peekas.

2010-06-10T05:18:00.002+08:00

Favourite Hello, Hardest Goodbye.

I live my 18 yrs of life, finally realise e' defination of love.

I love you means that i accept you for the person that you are, and that i do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that i'll love you and stand by you even thru the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do things i want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. i love you means that i know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that i care enough to fight for what we have and that i love you enough not to let go. It means that I’ll be okay when you’re with someone else. Loving you means standing by you even when you are ripping my heart piece by piece.

Right nao, i dn't wanna think anymore. Nao is not e' time you telling me which is true or false is me asking you in return. I just want to sleep. Dn't wake me up, please.

Kthxbai.

2010-06-10T02:07:00.005+08:00

I Hurt Myself By Hurting You.

Outdated peekas.

I love her!

Lai twist yi ge.

No one waits forever.

It's just same script but different cast.

Always my favourite song.

2010-06-09T00:05:00.008+08:00

I'm Not A Girl, Not Yet A Woman.

Monday .

Meet Cuppy & Jun at np. Was so bored till e' kbox promo pop out in my mind. Last min decision while we're slacking at np, we headed down Marina sq to sing. We went all crazy in e' room ._. LOL! Fun fun! While we're in e' train we met a great entertainer. Hush puppies? (Inside joke!) Our image spoiled while we're laughing like retards. Omg! Lols x 10000.

Tuesday .

Went Ikea & town. Bought quite a num of stuffs. Me love ikea food ttm! & had steamboat at Coca for dinner. Thumbs up! Okay not in e' mood to blog for nao so shall just make it short & sweet.

Speechless. I dn't wanna say anything anymore. It dsn't makes any difference. It's best to remain silent. Lemme sleep forever okay? Just dn't wake me up. I'm tired! Both mentally & physically. I rly wants to hit e' sack nao, but photobucket's having attitude prob agn ); Uploads are so slowwwwww! Ughs.

I must enjoy my Wed! Which is later (; Seeya guys.

Oh yah! I've not seen my new born baby cousin which i saw on my cousin's fb profile. She looks so cute! Hehs. Babies are babies. Innocent & cute, like always (;

Peekas & some oudated ones.

That day, i dn't even know i didn't shut dwn my lappy for 3 days! When i got home it was hot like oven ._. & i didn't logout my msn resulting in 37 chats. Sorry earthlings! Aiyah! Dsn't makes any difference cos' i dn't on9 msn also what even if i'm on9 i would only reply those whom i'm close with! & when ey' talk to me is like talking to wall. Lol!

Ikea! Love their chicken wings!

Coca.

My fave beef fillet. Thumbs up.

Got my new concealer & brushes!

♥ no more.

Kthxbai.

2010-06-08T02:25:00.003+08:00

对不起，我爱你

I'm sorry.

I should be saying to so many peepo. Late at night, when i'm alone in my room. Thoughts & thinkings flashed thru my mind like speed of light. One after another. Some, i cried. Some, i smiled retarded-ly to myself. Some, i just find it so plain stupid. Sorry to peepo who loved me, cared for me, worried about me etc. I'm thankful for being me nao. Cos' i finally realised there's still ppl who appreciates me all along & starts to appreciate me. But on e' other hand, i hated for being myself ttvm. I shouldn't have spoiled it, you all. Making things difficult. Causing piles of troubles & unhappiness. Causing hurts. Everything seems so different. Drifting takes place. It'll nvr be e' same anymore. I nvr thought things would turn out this way. I'm sorry for making you losing each other.

Sorry yft, i really am.

My tears. I tried so hard to hold back. It feels so tormenting each time i tried. Idk what to do nao. Maybe i should just walk out on my own, it'll be much more better for everyone.

If i had a wish, i'd wished that i'll nvr cry in all my life ever again. FML.

2010-06-06T16:26:00.003+08:00

Romeo Killed Juliet.

I miss Yijie so much nao ); It's been days i'm not homed & hvn't seen him. When i didn't blogged for days i'll forgot about those events that happened ._. Hmmmm. Where did i went on fri? Meet Lewis in e' evening & he brought me to Safra for dinner. He said before he wanted to bring me go eat oysters! Sumptuous meal we had that night. After that headed home, was too tired & i fell asleep with my makeup on. Arghs! Got to do more mask alrdy ._. Sat, me & Lewis went to meet Pomjipom & Darick at Safra. Initially wanted to play bowling, but there's too many ppl on e' waiting list. So went 4head to meet up with his other friends. Slacking at 4head srsly makes me so boring! E' rest went other places, so we went semb to meet Pjp & Darick agn. Slacked at Mac, went off ard 2, we went bowling at Safra agn! Hehs.

Lub mango!

Like stupid only.

My eyebags so heavy! );

Fyi, i hate it when ppl dsn't know anything ey' straight away jump into conclusion. I know one of you read my blog. I know your side your bro. But your dn't know anything, right? Read e' summary of a storybook before you tells a story.

I missed those days we laughed till we cry, not upset till we cry. Fml.

2010-06-04T09:55:00.009+08:00

Kiss, Because I'm A Girl.

Went Safra for bowling agn. Like fun only! We plan to bowl every once a week. Hahas! So tired naoz. Mummy woke me up to watch NBA final with her. But damn e' scv no live today, no live today, NO LIVE TODAY LA! Wtf. Final no live ); & hafta' wait for 11am ltr, for my home theatre to arrive. Like cool only. Edited, me want complain la. Stupid courts. 3pm en' arrive ._. Dk why one speaker got sound only. LAME.

Didn't brought my cam out, my hp cam is so lousy!

Like so sick of my life. Not fun not fun! I want to make it more fun! Oh yea i slept like so early these few days. I'm lovin' it! My sleeping timing switched back to normal alrdy. I want to keep this gg on if not my timing would be haywire agn ._. &&&&&& My nails chip ! ); Arghs .

I just can't understand the ways of all the men and their mistakes. You give them all your heart & then they rip it all away. When you didn't, its another story. What is love? I still dsn't knw what's love. I just knew it was a fairytale from e' start. & fairytales ain't true! Fml.

& i hate 'forever' this word. Cos' nothing lasts forever. When you say forever today, but tmr or days passes by it's another way round. No more forever.

Kthxbai.
♥ no more.

2010-06-03T12:40:00.012+08:00

Outside Is Nao Raining, & Tears Are Falling From My Eyes.

Was pondering for such a long time whether to continue blog or not. But well, it makes not much difference whether i shut it down or open it up again i assumed. So shall just continue to jot down my daily life & partial thoughts again. I rly hate stalkers & ppl whom i dislike reading my space. I wanted to private it but it seems too much of a hassle. & i'm quite satisfied with my new blogskin. Simplicity. Hehs! I've rly got no inspirations for a new blogskin. In e' past i can spent over hours editing & thinking of a new blogskin but i'm too lazy nao. Okay, simple for nao (;

Kthxbai.

Will get back soon.

& i love my life for this whole week! Naise events gg on. Esp, bowling! It makes me forget everything. Like fun only! Mummy booked a lane ltr at 8pm gonna bowl again! Weeeees*.

I busted. I cb. Sorry. I can't stop you from hating me. In your heart i still feels there's still another person too its just that you dn't wanna admit, so dn't say me. When i kept silent when i didn't voice out anything dsn't means i'm fine. I just dn't wanna add in problems into your problems. When i cried on your bed side, you never know. When i'm upset, i didn't show. When i'm silent, you misunderstands. You dn't knw, thats all. So nao, is this a happy ending? It's short, but still memorable. Your memories will stay with me. You gave me e' best memories in my 18 yrs of life. You nvr once let go of my hand when i'm out with you, or even gg to e' washroom etc. No matter how tired are you, when i say i wanna go to a place you'll try your best to bring me there w/o fail. I knw you'll nvr want this kind of bullshit memories within you. You'r e' best guy i've ever came across. I nvr believe in love & guys ever since e' last r/s. You're e' one who made me believe there's a love story which resembles like a fairytale. You made me think that not all good guys are dead. I f!ing hate myself nao. When i dn't show it dsn't mean i'm not upset, my heart aches so much like its tearing me apart. I won't ask for a 2nd chance, cos' i'm in no position to do so. I'm so cb. Sorry again. I know i'll miss you, i know i'll regret for sure. I know i can nvr find another one like you that love me in a million ways. It's ripping my heart into pieces whenever your images flashed across my mind. It just can't stop those sheddings. I know you'll find another & forget me. Just rmbr, i loved you. Goodbye too. Takecare boy.

♥ no more .

Pjp !

There's still a num of peekas, but photobucket's a bitch again! Damn it. Will upload tonight.

Bowling.

Okay, all e' pink balls are mine. Lols!

2010-05-24T22:32:00.001+08:00

I'm so proud of myself ! I can dong 1 pkt of cig for 3 days ley . Smoking srsly waste money , i must quit ! 6 more days .

2010-05-24T02:06:00.002+08:00

F!ing hell . I just wokeup from a dream that i superb love . Why must i wake up ?! ); Sibeh sad . I neglect my blog again when i'm at baby's place T.T

Friday - Baby book out damn early , i didn't sleep & went straight to his house sleep . Woke up in late afternoon & head out to bugis . Didn't buy anything ! Baby everytime this not nice that not nice ._. End up didn't buy . Aftermath , went to meet his friends .

Saturday - Baby woke me up ask me go bathe , sibeh tired ! Went 4head to eat . En' went Aloy's house . Me & baby didn't drink . Dn't feel like drinking ._. 1st time hor baby ?! En' we left early to eat & home . Cos' baby needs to book in early tmr .

Sunday - I didn't sleep e' whole night . Nbcb e' feeling damn sucks can ?! I got nth to do & all i have was e' comp ._. Stone all e' way till 8.30am & baby went to bathe . Books in & i'm homed !

Nao , me sibeh sian . It's 2.29am nao . Random waking up timing . How ?!

Friday . I feels like i just knock off from work in this top & hair ._. I hate tying up my hair but e' stupid helmet makes my hair damn messy .

All his fault ! Sibeh reckless . LOL .

2010-05-21T02:32:00.002+08:00

Hear Me Cry .

You couldn't say needed someone new.
You actually thought deep inside I knew.
Can you tell me. How can you say. Why this should suffice.
You passed me by and your heart as cold as ice.
You passed me by, did you see me cry?
Did you ask yourself why did you see me cry?
Did you ask yourself how can you hear me cry?
Did you ask yourself will we ever grow apart?
I wonder where we will go. Will we be the same?
You passed me by, I laugh inside I think of you & the love we made.
You passed me by. Tell me why this should suffice?
I hold you through the night now will I let it go. Soon I'll let it go.
Can you hear me cry, will you ask yourself why?
Can you hear me cry, will you ask yourself how?
Can you hear me cry, will you ask yourself?
Will we ever grow apart?
You, I'll stand by your side. I'll be there for you.
You, I'll stand by your side. Please just do me right.
You passed me by. You, I'll stand by your side.
I'll be there for you ... ...

Love is like a butterfly. When you hold it tightly it'll die, when you let go a lil' it'll fly away.

Sometimes its better to let go (;

2010-05-20T04:05:00.002+08:00

When Love Takes Over .

“You can push a girl away for so long

Until she walks out of ~~your life~~ on her own,

So be careful and make sure this is

What you want,

Because once she turns around,

She isn’t coming back.”