I've nothing to say . Nothing to blog .
I'm running against time .
I feel like sleeping forever . Never wakes up .

If only i'm a sleeping beauty .

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I still missed my grandfather . I dn't mind losing any of my friends . But not my family members . Why can't i meet my friends less to acc. my grandfather more ? My grandfather may find me very long winded now in e' other world . But i still can't let go of this fresh sudden incident . It happens too fast . Everytime e' train passed by khatib i would turn away & tear . Still i have to say , sorry gong gong . I did not play my part as a good grand daughter . I knw you dote on me very much . He's gone . Forever gone . I won't have any chance to touch his hands again .

Good nights .
Will not be blogging or using facebook on every weekends alrdy );
Have to stay over at my granny's place to take care of her .

I will miss Sshaylarose & my pet , Happy in fb !
Sians . My exp in pet society have to freeze for 3 days .
How can i chiong ?! Hmms , very sad *

I am selling off my clothes ! Interested buyers pls email me at baby--ibeliefs@hotmail.com .
Help me clear my wardrobe . Selling off at reasonable prices . Impulsive buys , brand new or in good condition .

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Because I'm A Girl .

Idk what to blog about . But i just feel like typing out . I realise after something happened to my grandfather , my family is in chaos . ==' 1st . Conflicts between two families . 2nd . My aunt quarelled w my aunt . 3rd . My mum nearly quarelled w my aunt's husband . 4th . My mum quarelled with my small aunt . Now ?! 5th ! My mum quarelled with my dad ! All these leads to my grandfather's case . Sigh ! My grandfather would be real upset to see my family like this .

History lesson today . When i reached e' school foyer at ard 7.30pm i saw my classmates gathering there . & i went to gather with em' too . Lols ! Gwen , one of my classmate told me our history teacher cancelled e' class last min w/o informing us thru msges . Whenever he cancel class he would msg us to tell us like in 1hr advance . But today e' whole class was waiting for him until e' office admin came up & told em' class last min cancelled . Z ! Made my way out of school . & went to Admiral Bar to drink . Boring day after all !

I hate reality .

I'm sick again . Again ! E' same old friends visited me again . Flu & Cough ! Can you both leave me alone forever ?! I hate it ! Arghhhhhh .. I'm always so weak ! Just reached home from school . Halfway during lesson i felt nauseous & my gastric is on form ;/ & wanting to leave my lesson to hurried back home to rest . But after i went to e' canteen & have a bite i'm alright alrdy . Everywhere i go it reminds me of my grandfather . Everything is still so fresh to me & my family . I knw as days passes by , i might get used to it . E' feeling of him is still there . I just dn't believed he has left us . Maybe what baby say is right . I can't face up to reality & can't accept e' fact that my grandfather is gone . He can nvr be replaced . Since young he's e' one who took care of me . I dn't have a happy childhood . I dn't like to tell my friends about my past . My grandfather e' one who made my childhood days so memorable . My mum & dad dsn't give a shit to me at all till i was 7 yrs old . Idk why ? Those days with him .. will forever be engraved on my heart . I can't help but to tear . We're too close in e' past alrdy . Sigh .



My facebook is .. Z ! Deaddddd . Nope i mean my pet society ); 7 days of emptiness caused my pet to have flies all over & it made her starve . I feel so bad about it . Mua hua hua ;D I'v no mood to play pet society alrdy . One word ; I'm Bored of it alrdy .

Before gg school . No heavy make up . I didn't put falsies . Just eyeliner & mascara . Oh ya ! Baby bought me marjolica marjoca mascara ! It's rly good ! Try it (;









& 20 mins passed ! I'm done with my mask alrdy (;

Nah nah nah . My gastric is acting up again ! Someone help pleaseeeee ...
I miss baby . He's having outfield again . Poor thing .

& Mum bought me this .

I prefer falsies made from sterillized human's hair compared to those plastic ones . Human's hair last longer en' plastic ones . & it's easier to stick on . It'll not hurt delicate eye . Some plastic falsies material is so hard causing it to hurt my eye .

Regret . Kinship is still e' best .

It's been a week ! Shaylarose is empty ); On 4/4/09 afternoon my grandfather passed away . & i'm staying over at my grandmother's hse over e' days . I'll be gg home tonight . & i'm at baby's hse now .

It's so sudden . My grandfather just passed away @ SGH . He'll always be e' best grandfather i ever had . I rly regretted not visiting him often in e' past . I didn't have any chance now . He had liver failure . He's my 1st closest family members who passed away . In r/s i always tell myself ' when you'v lost something , you'll learn how to cherish . ' But i hvn't felt it & understand its meaning although i always tell myself . Now i finally learn its meaning .

& cherished what you have now , cos' when it's gone , it'll be gone forever . He's really gone forever now . I can only flip thru photo albums to see him again . I can only talk to his ashes to chat with him . I regret . Regret . Really regret ! Sorry gong gong . I knw you always want me to go your hse visit you , always want me to be there during family outing , wanting me to be there for your birthday , wanting me to always send him songs into his hp ( but i always tell him later la , later la ) . But i didn't make it . I'm so so so fxck up . Sorry . You ask me to take good care of popo , i will de . Rest assured . I'm so proud of you you can fixed electric appliances so well . But nw , no one would knw how to fixed alrdy .

Gonggong , you'll always stay in our heart . Rip .
I missed you badly . Sigh

His funeral was held at Blk 825 for 5 days . My aunt took a video of my grandfather's coffin to be pushed in on cremation day @ Mandai . All of us shouted like crazy . I dn't knw why when he's coffin is pushed in my heart felt so sour telling me that i can't see him forever alrdy . Thanks friends , relatives to be there on e' last day .

Something happened to my grandfather . Will be blogging when i'm back !

Stay Tuned !

I'm back (; What's with e' weekends ? I didn't attend school on thurs ! Bcos' of my bangs . I should have bang myself on e' wall ! & i wokeup very late on friday . Baby's book out ard 4plus yet i wokeup @ 6plus . Went northpt again ;/ & he bought a belt . Shopped for his jeans but dsn't have his size ); & back 4head to have dinner & homed ! Baby is sleeping alrdy .

& i'm gonna continue to watch my TVB vcds (; This time round is E.U . A randome title . But it's about police force . Thumbs up !

Will be back w more updates . No life , no life . Tsk tsk !



Put dwn better or put up ?



Should be weird .

1st April .

In Ever Loving Memory To Leslie Forever .

( Click it if you dn't knw who is he . )
http://www.leslie-cheung.net/

He's an idol of mine ! My close friends would knw . & ey' likes to make fun of him ==' Jared is one of em' . & he even record smth in my mp3 talking about Leslie ! Saying he's a gay whatever .. ;/ Such an ass ! 1st April 2003 he departed us ); & it's e' 6th yr of his death anniversary today . Well , few yrs back i thought it was an April Fool's joke & i didn't belived it until it was up on e' news . Wth ! I cried so badly . & idk why ever since that year he passed away onwards i didn't played any prank on anyone . Except for forward msges . I still rmb i had a tiff w my mum . He threw away all my collections of Leslie Albums & magazines about him . It has alrdy been so many years alrdy . I still didn't forgets about him (; & my friends claim that i'm mad or old fashion ? ==' ! It dsn't matters he's a bisexual or what ? I likes his vocals & songs only mah ! He rly have a very powerful voice . Dn't belief ? Youtube & search for his live concerts . He has a voice that very least singers would have . Lastly , he's so charming too ! One of my fave song from him . & dn't you realise ? I'm not rly into Sg'or tw idols ? Mostly are from Hk . I find Hk guys so .. Omg ! Well , diff people have diff likings right ? Lols . But baby dn't worry , i still love you most most !

左右手 - Leslie Cheung

Baby is booking out tmr alrdy (;

My Fringe Totally C-M-I !

Talk about it my heart gonna breaks . I dn't wanna go out until it's long ! I tell you , if its short it's still okay . But nw ? She fxcking cut away my anteena ( e' side of my fringe ) . & worst still ! She cut bangs for me ! This is not what i wanted . I even showed her how i want my fringe to be & keep my anteena not to cut it .

Let me show you ! How wide , how ugly it is !

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You saw it ?! I hate bangs ! I told her NO BANGS ! & BANGS is what i got ! Fxck ! Pls . Peepo , dn't ask me go out w you anymore & dn't pester me to go out anymore until e' side of my hair grows long . & dn't come tell me ' it's okay , it'll grow long ' When ? Got to be few mths later & last yr i cut bangs i took fxcking 6 mths for my side hair to grow long . Fyi , my hair isn't like normal peepos . It takes very very slow to grow ! If it was you , you'll also be like me ranting . & now when i wash & blow dry my hair e' outcome is 10x worst en' e' pics there . It's looks so ' pong ' , thick ,short & ugly ! Super angry !

No mood to blog ! Deciding wanna go sch later anot ;/