2 more days ! (;

( W/o makeup laaaaaaaaaaa . )

I'm gonna get my nails done tmr ! Went to cut my fringe just now , & i look like a small girl now );

Tell me , why am i tearing again ? It was nvr easy standing up on my feet again after those huge impacts you've given me . I was left with no choice but to leave you . I dn't think you loved me like how you thought you were . If not , i wouldn't have ended up like a pathetic bitch everytime that feels so tormented . I'm so afraid to go back into your arms again , cos' for very incident you did to me you promised me that you wouldn't do it again , but yet it repeats . It was nvr easy to stay strong . It was nvr easy to forget you . It was nvr easy to let go 2207 & It was nvr any easier to act a strong front infront of my friends . Deceiving em' , myself & everyone ard me that i wasn't thinking of you but in fact i am , very much . This is e' only way of getting rid you out of my mind . But getting rid of you in my heart was another story . I feel so empty in my room now . I missed you messing up my room , my bed , my blankets , my comp table each time that i'll scold you for messing em' up . & you'll give me a cheeky smile . When i told you i didn't miss you , i was lying . When i told you i'll never ever go back to you again , i was lying too . I was hesitating each time i wanted to text you , i miss you . If we're still tgt , this would be e' 3rd yr we're celebrating V day tgt . It has been 3years . Fate washes off it in just mere secs . I can't be like how in e' past anticipating every fri which is your book out day & dreading every sun when it's your book in day . I swore to myself that i will never loved any guy like how much i've loved you & nvr will i sacrifice so much to other guys like how much i do to you . K , i admit defeat . I can nvr win you in anything . Except for loving you i've won it million times more en' you . You can nvr imagined how much i've loved .

Fate would brings us back someday , i assume .