Oops. I'm a day late in this space! Happy New Year everyone! How's your new year spent?! I spent my new year at so many places. Blast! & finally after 3yrs i saw Fiona at Amber. & e' worst part was waiting for cab! Omgosh. Same like last year. It was like hell. All cabs either on call or busy. Asses. Was 2010 a bad year? Can't help to agree with it. Hope 2011 would be better & i can be happier. I guess i'm better off alone. Things are destined. Ha, people often enters my life in e' sweetest entrance & exits by e' toughest doors. I always built a wall against people to see who're e' real ones who care enough to break it down. Nonetheless, there isn't any. By typing this post i feel like crying. My tears are always falling so easily. I promised myself not to cry every year. Tried so many attempts but to no avail. Honestly speaking, who'll always be there? In e' end i'm still alone standing. I felt that my life are filled with miseries. Just when i thought those people could be a part of me & play a important role in my life, left me one by one. Why humans dsn't seems to understand? If you can't handle me at my worst you definitely dn't deserve me at my best. I've got so many things to say, but i kept everything nicely within me & e' next moment deleted it by my mind. Ha, felt so stupid. Wanted to say tons of stuffs, when it comes to e' situation everything just vanished. Is this a good or bad thing? Maybe i should try to say everything out that will make people understand. But what's e' use? Everyone's selfish. Nobody will think their in e' wrong. It's just my wishful thinking to think that people will understand. I shouldn't be angry so often, it causes me to lose sixty secs of happiness. So what for? Someone always say ' dn't treat someone as a priority when you're just treated as an option? ' I guess i'm e' option never e' priority. I hate everything about 2010, except meeting you. It was e' best part of 2010. Hope e' same goes to you too. Happy moments till then on 1-1-11. I'm gonna leave everything in e' lurch. Only bringing happy memories with me on e' road ahead of 2011. Just hope that you'll be happy, forever (; No matter how tough my road will be in e' future, i'm still gonna wipe of my tears & continue this journey ahead independently. Always e' last man standing.

Maybe i should just be like this song, 寂寞寂寞就好? Haha. That's when i know i'm e' best.