I heard stories about you. Everyday i'm listening to e' song of e' drama we watched tgt in your room. It's playing every single day in e' fm. Did you even realized both of e' chi songs i'll remind of us are both from e' drama we first watched when we're tgt & e' other one is e' last we caught tgt? Why am i moving on? Why did i moved on so fast? No guys helped me to move on. You're still e' last i love. There's none other in my heart now. You know how cruel you are? I re read your texts sent by you. How cruel can you be to me? I feel like i'm a pathetic piece of crap! You left no living road for me to walk. How many times you've given me up so fxcking easily? How many times did you asked me to move on? I've gt no other choice left. I've nvr once given up on you when you asked me to. Till e' last time.. You left me w no fxcking choice. How many umpteem times i begged you back to me? You didn't even give a hoot to me. Coincidentally idk why i pressed till your texts. I reread e' one you sent to me w emoji like how i oftenly sent to you during those torturing period. I felt so silly & even wanna cry. Cos' i won't ever get a fxcking more en' 10 words from you. All you replied was ' siao ah? lol ' & no more. Ever felt how disappointed i felt at that point of time? I swear i typed w all my heart trying to make your day. But somehow you dn't need all these. It's just one sided.

My 19 yrs of life. You were my favorite hello & hardest goodbye. I'vr nvr waited for someone. Knew how i lived my everyday w fears in your house? Even how tired i am i'll still get up early thou i still have 2 more hrs to sleep befr gg work. But i still endure everything for e' sake of being w you. Everytime when you're in your room, aft i showered. I dn't dare to open your fxcking room's door softly. I deliberately make loud noises turn e' knob loudly to let you notice i'm coming in so you could stop your craps or flirting viewing girl's pic in your comp. Dn't even dare to fetch you right on your sch entrance just fearing you might not want anyone to see me. Dn't even dare to glimpse on your fone each time it rings. Rmbr i always acc you to walk to e' bustop & whe you board e' bus i'll go. But you're meeting your classmate there so i walked e' other way in case you dsn't want him to see me. I rather you deceive me rather en' letting me knw e' truth. Cos' i knw i'll breakdown. & to you when i cry it's irritating. My tears wet your pillow every alternate days. I always cry asking myself why did you do these to me? E' guy i love. I've nvr question any doubts on who's right or wrong but e' only thing i care is whether isit worth it or not. I'll tell myself everythings gonna be worth it in e' end. I dn't care how many girls you flirt how many girls you meet but e' only thing i care is whether will you be back to me.

I thot i could change you. I can't. I'm fxcking useless. Rmbr each tears you made me roll down my cheeks. It's every lie you lied. But i still lied to myself you didn't. Ever know how tormenting it could feel? Can't you see how much effort i made to change myself cos' of you? You endlessly got me for granted & hurt me countlessly. You made me fall for you by those sweetest words you nvr meant. Where have all those promises gone to? You played w fire time aft time. Tell me? How to get back to you thou times i think about you when some scenes & songs reminded me of you. You wouldn't want me to do back those 7mths to you. Cos' if i treat you e' way you treated me you'll hate me. All i knw is for all e' guys that came across me now i'll let em' taste e' way how you got me. Idk what's love anymore. All i know is how you got me becoming a player. Influencing my friends just to screw e' guys feelings up. All thanks to you.

Stop saying i've moved. Cos' e' one that move on first was you. It was nvr me. All those emoji texts i typed you restored your fone w/o even giving a damn of saving it down. My efforts just went down e' drain. You left me so unappreciated. You used to be e' first reason i smiled every morning but for e' torturing period you're e' reason behind each tear i cried at night.

I moved on not bcos' of stopped loving you. You left me w no fxcking choice. It's e' only way i've to walk. Dn't worry i wouldn't get myself any bf. Cos' it's e' player game starts now.