I thought you'll be e' first guy who proved to me that not all guys are e' same. But rly what you've proven to me is that ey're rly all e' same. Love can make you happy but oftentime it hurts. But love is only special when you give it to who it's worth. R/s are like glass sometimes is better to leave it broken en' to try to hurt yourself to fix it back. There're things that we dn't want to happen but have to accept, things we dn't want to know but have to learn. & ppl we can't live w/o but have to let go. Dn't ever give up if you still wna try. Dn't ever wipe your tears if you still wna cry. Dn't ever settle for an ans if you still want to know. & dn't ever say you dn't love him if you can't let him go.

You said you dsn't want to see me get hurt, so does that mean you closed your eyes when i cried? Oftentimes we said goodbye to e' person we love w/o wanting to. Thou that dsn't mean we've stopped loving em' or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful say to say i love you. Someday you'll cry for me like i've cried for you. Someday you'll miss me like how i missed you. Someday you'll need me like i needed you. Someday you'll love me like how i crazily loved you, but i wont love you. Cos I'm tired of fighting like hell. Moving on is simple, its what you've left behind makes it diff. Letting go isn't about giving up is accepting that there are things that cnt be. There're things in life we didn't wna let go of ppl we didn't want to leave behind. Dn't hold on to smth too long that's nvr meant. Sometimes we need to set things free befr it hurts us badly.

Dn't try to understand everything that is happening. Sometimes it is not meant to be understood but rather to be accepted thou ppl always said ' Everything happens for a reason ' Do you knw what's hard about being strong? Is that nobody cares to ask if you're hurt. Staying w someone you can't be tgt for alot of reason is like staying under e' rain. It's gna make you sick. It's nt by doubting a person that make things hurt you but to find out your doubt was true. We dn't have to rush things. Cos if something is rly meant for you, even if somebody owns it now, someday you'll own that too. What is hard in being alone is not sadness or fear, but its e' fact that billions of ppl in e' world, no one even cares. E' reason why isit hard to be happy is cos we find it hard to let go of e' things that made us sad.

Ppl stereotype, ppl judged, ppl criticises. But none i care. Why isit affecting me much? My ego became more unbearable each day. I rly dn't care what other ppl say about me. Cos' what ey've said i've done that twice to em'. So it's okay. But if ppl dsn't want to see us tgt, i rly dk how do i've to ignore it. Srsly it hurts. It's nvr easy being me. I dn't have everything in complete. Ppl dn't understand me at all. It's so tormenting to act like its okay but it's killing me inside. Yah idk how to i've to ignore it cos' you dnt even bother about this r/s, i assumed. If you were to hold me telling me everything is okay as long as you're there for me. I've no assurance. All you gave me was doubts. You were nvr there.

I changed at that point of time i knew ugly stuffs ppl said. But i dn't rly give a damn. Cos' love is bullshit. But ppl dk what you did to me & made me turned into a fxckedup 'bitch'. Why? Does anyone knw how you treated me back en'?

If no one wants to see us tgt, why are we still tgt? I mean why am i still fighting like hell to keep this r/s gg on if you dn't even give a damn. If you care, i dn't mind about fighting like hell for you. Why shld i? I'm tired of loving, waiting assuming, hearing lies, saying sorry & hurting.

I'm left w nothing? I dn't mind you restrict everything of me. It's okay if you dn't let me say hi when i see my friends on street. I dn't mind you asking me not to reply my friend's text. I dn't mind everything you restrict me. BUT WHY ARE YOU DOING ALL E' THINGS YOU RESTRICT ME YET I CAN'T EVEN DO A SINGLE SHIT?! WHY?! You've got your friends those that dsn't wants to see us tgt, you're nvr left w nth. There's no one i can ever turn to? You chased my friends away, those that were always being there for me when you forsake me. I wonder where we will go.

I'm tired, tired of loving you. I can't even voice anything out..

Please .. stop torturing me. I'm afraid of loving you. I dn't meant to doubt you getting all freaked out when your fone rings. But it's e' past that turned me into this way. Can you stop lying to me? Can you stop ' can't get enough of girls ? ' I'm rly tired. Idk how long more do i have to hold on.. Please. Stop.

Why no one understands? No one understands why i've turned into this. I miss me. I miss e' me befr i've met you. I lost everything. You were nvr there to hear me out...