I'm such a loser. I didn't achieve anything till now, i'm 19. It has been 19 years. I drop out of school when i was 15. I regretted gg in NVSS. E' people i met there screw my entire life up. Be it love life, school mates, teachers & even e' principle. I fxcking hate em' & e' whole part of my sec sch journey. It should be a fun one but e' teachers & principle are just crap stuffs! I can't go to school in peace everyday with em' prejudicing me always. I spent my sec 2 life either detention or suspension. & e' fxcking vice principle even ask me not to go school, only when i feel like studying en' i'll have to go back. E' principle fxcking hell ask me to get lost. FML. Was wondering, if i didn't enter NVSS but other schools i could have graduated from poly this year. But there's one thing i never regretted was some of e' friends i get to know there. I'm just ranting every single day on my twitter how my life is in a chaos. I think its time to learn something new. Its time for e' start of a new journey of my life. To do myself proud. I just find my life rather fxck up. I shouldn't think of dying. But it's e' only way to ease e' fxcking pain. Would anyone bother to care if i'm gone forever? Some friends are just friends no more en' that. I can treat you double nice & i'll do everything to e' extreme for em'. But nobody appreciates. Why ey' always take things for granted? If you can't do e' same thing like how i treated you dn't expect me to treat you like how i did before. It's not i dn't fxcking care about em' but when i'm down i dn't even knw which one to turn to? My mind spinning all kinds of thoughts ' will ey' ans my call? are ey' free? am i disturbing em'? ' End up i'm always alone. It's like so meaningless. All of em' are e' same. Actually i dn't blame em'. I try to understand em' i try my best to solve their problems for em'. But it really hurts to see being unappreciated. Just FML hard!

For every love life e' conclusion is just disappointment. I'm not gonna let anyone enter my life & take my smile away ever again. Love is just a word but there's no one to define e' real meaning behind it. Screw all e' guys who made me cry like there's no tmr. & i nvr really knew how strong am i until being strong is e' only choice left for me.

I'm done with my rants. KTHXBAI.

I love foods! I'm too bored. So I'm gonna post all e' foods I've been eating these few days k? I'm drooling now. Slurps* basically e' money I spent on foods are much more en' my clothes! My hobby eat eat eat & of cos' shopping. Lololol. K gonna end this post I'm so hungry now! I rmbred huiying told me before 能吃是福? Not sure if I used e' correct 'fu' anot?!





































































& I'm loving my new bag & wallet! E' bag is from my dad & e' wallet is from Lewis. Both are my bday present! Hehe.






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Valentines Day. How's your 14th feb spent w your loved ones? I had an awesome one with him. It's not e' day that made it special but it was him that made everything great & worthwhile. Even if it's just a simple dinner & roses. I'm so surprised when I saw him holding it on his hands. It's like how silly we could fought so hard ytd but e' next day we're back to normal. Thanks for e' effort made you still went out w me despite you're feeling unwell. I had an awesome Val! What about all of you? (;


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If only i got a choice, i wouldn't kill you. I'll stab myself to death infront of you. Cos' only when i'm dead you'll be happy & there you'll start to think how things should be like. & there you'll start to understand me just a lil' & see e' changes in me. You threatened me w death, you thought me all these. I'm telling you back.

FXCK YOU HARD & YOUR FXCKING BRAINLESS PHILOSOPHY.

It's not ppl dn't wanna understand you, you didn't even try to understand ppl so dn't fxcking blame ppl for not understanding you. Wake up your fxcking idea.

My Life Story.

It's gonna be wordy, mind you.

I'm too bored. So it eventually brought me to blogger.com to update this rusty space of mine where i plant my memories.

I'm 19. Well, no big deal. I just realised time is running out. But i'm glad i'm still young. I often rant how much i hate my life & how my life sucks compared to e' others. But i'm still contented. E' best part that keeps me gg on is my mum. No words can describe how much i love her & how grateful i had got her. She's e' best living thing on earth, i swear! She stood by me throughout e' whole journey of my life. She's e' bestest of e' BEST. If there's a next life, i would still wanna be her daughter. She'll be e' only one i'm willing to sacrifice anything or everything for her. I love you, mummy!

But on e' other hand, my life wasn't as great as how i thought. It was a catastrophe compared to a disaster. I failed to handle situations. I suck at this. So FML. I hate myself for still breathing. How much i envy others happy families, their happy love life, their happy friends. When it comes to love. It just shoot me down. Everyone has their negative side of life. It's just how you look at it in a optimistic or pessimistic way. But no matter how hard i tried to look things in a different way it failed to keep me smiling. Everything is so haywire to me. Just dn't feel good. That's why i've been so gloomy. If only there's a sombohdee who will always be by my side. I dn't need a sombohdee to promise to solve all my problems for me but just walk thru all e' darkest obstacles in my life w me. Humans are e' same, i guess. Ey' can treat someone high up like to e' heaven. Or just treat someone low down like hell. But ey' nvr appreciate when ey're high up in e' heaven. Only when ey're banished down to e' hell, ey'll taste e' feeling. After so much typings, i just didn't get to e' main point. But it's okay. I know i'm gonna be alright. This year bday' wish is a lil' different from e' rest of e' year. I stopped myself from wishing ' Tears free everyday ' Cos' i know i'll still. It's just some crap to kid lil' girls & boys just like fairytales.

If only liquor could drown my sorrows waking up e' next day forgetting all e' unhappy scenarios in my life. I dn't mind to drink everyday till i get e' worst hangover. It's just temporary.

I missed out too much funs in my life. But i wish it was a much simpler life.

K goodnights. I'm gonna end here.