1945-2009 .
我很想你。我真的很像很像很想你公公。如果我有机会我一定会告诉你我有多么的爱你和想你。不知道你会不会看见和听见我所写的一切呢？你是在我心目中最,最伟大的爸爸和公公。。。

Fxck ! Can you stop crying ?! I mean can i just stop crying ?! I hate to see myself in this state ! It's not e' end of e' world ! Everybody needs to been thru death ! We won't get out alive ! This is part & parcels of life . It'll occur to every family not just mine ! Stop it . Please . I hate it !
I just wanted to make a video of my grandfather . Why am i crying again when i look at his pictures ?! How can i be so weak ?! This is impossible ! How can i continue to make ?!

This is e' only picture we both took on my birthday . E' rest was when i'm still a baby & he carried me . I regretted not taking many pictures with him . I dn't have a chance now . Can you see he is so skinny back en' ? He was also suffering from liver failure & he just had his operation . That's why he looked so skinny . This was taken 14 yrs back . If back in e' past i knew he only have 14 more yrs to live i would stay with him & not move back to my place & keep him company everyday . It was also a blessing he could live 14 more years with us . If nt , he would have left us 14 yrs ago .


It has been 1mths plus gg 2 gong gong left us . Why can i just let it go & stop crying like how other people did ? Ey' did it , why can't i ?! I miss him alot alot ! I knw i've been repeating again & again . But i rly wish i could touch his hand , hear his voice & see him again . I knw this is impossible & not gonna happen again & ever again ... ... I will never meet him again .

Life is so fragile ... So so so fagile ...