I really really really really really really miss you , gong gong . No words can describe that kind of sour feeling in my heart . I tried hard not to look at your photos displayed on my house . I tried hard not to think of you . I tried hard not to listen to sentimental songs . I tried hard not to look out on your block when i'm on e' train pass by khatib . I tried hard to avoid seeing e' same model of your precious car . I tried hard to look away those things that reminds me of you . I tried everything . I tried my best . But my tears still fell .

If i only had one wish . I wouldn't wish for anything but a time machine . I wanna turn back time . & that's only when i'll be happy .

I dn't know why i break down so easily . But all i know is i love you alot . I miss you alot . Nothing else . This wound would take a very very very long time for me to heal . When i'm young , i used to be very naughty . I would run ard getting hurt . But you are e' one who is with me . & now my tears are cascading down again . I dn't wish to type anymore . I really really miss you alot ! I hate to face e' fact that you're gone . I pretend to think that you're still in your house watching tv like you always do . Fixing electrical appliances for people . But .. it's just all an illusion . I am scared . I dn't knw why .