I'm so tired of my life. Can i just die?

Khon neung khao chang di kap chan cha ting khao long ya ngai? Khon neung khoi thing pai tae rak mai khoei chang hai. Chan mai chai chao ying chak nai, ko khong tong leuak sak thang.

Greatest Gift God Ever Gave Me.

Searching high & lows for it. I found it when i was 15. But god took her away from me making us islands apart from e' 7 seas few years ltr. I miss her more en' words. I bet everyone does too. She's e' only one friend, i call her my soulmate who would stand by me in whatever shit i've been thru. Siding me thru every obstacles not on neutral taking two sides with bitches that tried to tore me apart. Being there for me 24/7. When i say 24/7 i really meant 24hrs a week. She never will let me taste e' feeling of lonely. With her, i am nvr alone. We're tgt almost everyday, we did almost everything tgt. A call from me, she'll rushed down to my side. I swear, she rly did. When i cry, she would cry with me. When i'm mad, she would stay quiet to listen. When i'm angry, she would make sure to break e' limbs of those people who made me flare up. She stood up for me when people trying to talk bad about me. She understand me from top to toe. She knew i've got a really bad temper, but she nvr once blames me for that unlike others. She knows each & every minute of my emotions changed. When i'm happy. Or when i'm down. She knew every sadness hidden behind of my each laughs which nobody could tell. Trying my best to stay happy infront of her, a phrase from her broke me down thoroughly by saying ' Stop putting on a strong front, i knew your not happy at all can you please tell me what's wrong by not making me worry? ' Tell me, where else can i find someone like her? Why do i miss her so much? Maybe i relied on her too much. Now she's gone, i must learn to grow. She's just like a mum to me. She took care of my everything. That's why i called her my Mummy. She's Melanie (; That's what i call, true friend.

Dear god, please take great care of her on my behalf. She's e' bestest thing on earth & of cos' Adrian Toh.

Marina Bay Sands.

I got hundreds over of pictures to upload. & this place is just more en' awesome to describe! For e' 2 days spent there with just baby alone is superb. Just dn't bear to leave e' room even if there's only a entertainment to entertain us, e' TV. But he keeps dragging me out of e' room to Marina Sq. & e' Skypark's scenery is drop dead gorgeous furthermore e' swimming pool? I wished i could stay there longer. But its just 3D 2N. Shld be more en' contented. Ha! Can go my fb to browse thru e' pics. I'm rly lazy to blog over here. I think i'm giving up blogging. But if few years dwn e' road i might blame myself for my laziness cos' i couldn't read or look back my memories alrdy if i didn't post. Lol!

Gdnights all.

Why does it seems i'm crying always when i'm alone. I'm so lazy to blog. But other en' my blog i dn't feel like turning to anyone to drown my sorrows. How does it feels to be me? How does it feels to live my life? How does it feels to cry like a bitch? There's so many things you guys dn't understand. We tend to look at different things differently. Be it sad or happy. When you see things in a more optimistic way things would be happier. But what if? What if we're alone?

If you're so contented with your life what for interfering into other people's affair. You wouldn't want e' others to do it to you too. I wouldn't hate. Cos' it would only bring down myself. It means weakness.