Something just pop out from my mind ! I can't sleep for always . This feeling suck balls . When i can't sleep , i tend to think alot . Even minor problems i could think big ! I got to get myself a job & work from morning till night like how i did in e' past to forget those problems . I always use work as an excuse to run away from problems . I dn't wanna face all these anymore . I need a job to occupy me ! Whereby i can get up early in e' morning & get off my butt out of my house & gets back home to drop dead on my bed & wakes up in e' early morning & this cycles repeats . So i won't hear , won't see , won't encounter those unhappy problems which i dn't want it to occur in my life . Idea huhhhhhhh ? Yes yes yes . Work , soooooooooooon !

E' 7pm show , suddenly reminds me of gong gong ); E' scenario is almost e' same . Until nao , e' image of him when he finally took his last breath on e' hospital bed is still within me . Calling & shouting our lungs out for him asking him not to shut his eyes . All of us making a nuisance in e' ward . Even e' doctor & nurses cried with us . I miss him so much . Talking about this , my tears started rolling dwn my cheeks unknowingly again . This is e' worst feeling ever . Idk , why some ppl can just let go of e' tragedy in a midst of time of a kin leaving & nvr returns again . Whenever late night cab journey that pass by General Hosp , silence befalls on me . Reminding me bits & pieces of him . I knw never in my life i would ever see him again . So everytime , i pray , i hope & i wish for a time machine . But i know it's never gonna come true . Waking up in e' morning , letting my way out to my living room . I just couldn't help to take a glance on his photo that is placed on my tv console . That picture , i snapped it for him when he's laughing so heartily using my fone . I daren't see his photo , but just a quick glance . Cos' i know my tears would just falls . But even just a quick glance couldn't help me to let my tear falls . It's 4th april soon . E' depart of him from us for 1 year . I just couldn't believed it . Watching him gasping for his last breath on e' bed side was just like ytd . & time just flies . I hold back my tears whenever we're praying him , i just dn't knw why i'm so easily defeated by my tears . I dn't wish to cry too . No one was crying , but why me ? When can i ever see him again ? My broken home 15 years ago , he was taking care of me in & out when my mum was busy working & my dad was nowhere . He gave me e' feeling of a perfect home . We were so close , relatives & friends of him teasing us that i'm like his girlfriend cos' i would stick to him whenever i wants to go to bed or even anywhere . But now ? He's not there for me anymore . But above , watching over me .

I miss you so much ever , grandpa .

I regretted for so much things that i've promised you , but i couldn't give you . Sorry .
I never cherished someone that dotes so much on me , that is why i'm missing him so dearly now .

& miraculously a butterfly flew into my room from nowhere an hour after i post this ...

You cant make up your mind, mind, mind, mind, mind. Please dont waste my time, time, time, time, time! I'm not trying to rewind, wind, wind, wind, wind. I wish our hearts could come together as one.

I'm feeling a lil' sleepy nao . Very good . Me like ! Cos' i finally gets tired . Me want to sleep . Hehehahahohosxsxz . It has been so so so long ...

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sinceeeeeee

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since , since , since

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SINCE I LAST SING K !



Went to Np's new partyworld . Damn nice over there unlike Safra's one ._. Me & sis dn't feel like leaving . Hah ! Only sang for 3 hrs , not enough lo ! Andddddddd . I go crazy over Mv's with Raymond Lam & Vivian Hsu in it . Mac for supper , & girls gossip again .

My gastric has serious moodswing problems . Pain like f! nao ._.

My solo . Hahahaha ! Scroll dwn if you dn't like my face !

Me love love my new grey EOS lens . Heeeeeeeeeeeeeees .














Carlsberg sucks .


See , this girl . Massage , massage !















Sayo ! This peeka makes my thigh looks so fat . Arghhhhhhs ._.



It has been raining & raining & raining ! I hate this kind of sexy weather ._. Makes me sick . Rain all you want but not on weekends okayokayokayokayokayOKAY ?! Walaoooooooo , me want fly kite la ! );

Bored ttm .

Idk why , from ytd till nao my stomach is still so pain . Arghhhhhhs !

Okay , baibai .

When You See My Face , I Hope It Gives You HELL !


I'm back ! I'm back ! I'm back ! Partially fine nao ? Srsly life is better when you decide not to care much .


Oh oh ! I just realised i got a very very slightly noticable incredibly small & shallow dimple on my right cheek ! I've to give that 'cramp' face to notice it . Uber coolness . Hahahaha ! Actually i dn't give a damn , but i rmbred sis told me donkey mths ago , i just came to pay attention to it like today ? Lol x 987654321 .


I'm downloading itunes nao . Fugging slowwwwwwww to update all my songs ._. I wanna fast fast quick quick put all e' songs into my sibeh chio ipod shuffle so i can bring her out tmr (; I got thousands over songs , i wanna delete hundreds of em' off . But how ah ? It's xfering nao . T.T Omg , I'm suchha' noob .


Why is everything so slow ?! Fb so lag ! Photobucket so slow ( as usual being a bitch ._.) & Itunes so slow ! Faster ley , me want sleep alrdy .


Irritating guys are so god-damn irksome ._.

To ; Guest . Here's my watch that you wanted me to post it up ._.


E' same person caught all these soft toys for meeeeeee (; So cute right all of em' ?!



And and anddddd this lil' boy ;D Too cute to resist .







Somebody bought this sibeh chio ipod shuffle for me (; Sibeh chio cos' it's in pink !Thankthankthankthanks .

Hello . I just wokeup from my sleep & i can't get back to sleep alrdy ); Went to catch ' How To Train Your Dragon ' Awesome . ' Toothless ' is so cuteeeeee can ?! ;D & caught bearbears again . This time got 4 ! Yea , happy family (; Heeeeeeeeeees . Xiexie nnnnnnnnnnnnnni .

Okay . Baibai .

I realised , i just dn't know you like who i thought you were ...

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你是情人 , 還是朋友 ? 還沒勇氣想得太多 .



Post deleted . I'm back home . But i hate home . Dn't talk to me , i dn't feel like talking to anyone .

Okay , byebye .

Weiwei so ); nao .


Town with Mummy & Bro today . Curl my hair out today ._. Having nth better to do , while waiting for mum & bro to get done .

Me not happy nao of so many things . So ); can ?

I wanna study , study , study ! Should i go back to Bishan ite to take up night class ? But not for O's . Maybe i'm taking sec 3 & en' after a yr of sec 3 i'll retake my O's again . I wanna go poly ! Omg . Can i make it ? So for e' time being , got to work first .

._. Ignored most of em' .

Okay , i still prefer straight hair ;D

I love my Cotton On's slipper ! I can wear it at home . Super comfortable . Hahaha !

My precious .

Playing With Fire .


Me want to blackshot la ! But e' game can't load nao . Got attitude prob one ! Tsk .

YAY ! I FINALLY DELETED A WHOLE CHUNK OF CONTACT LISTS FROM MY HP . It looks so neat nao . I've deleted those peepo whom i dislike & those inactive contacts . Bye from my contacts , suckerz ! My contacts are so pathetic less nao ); Sad case . It got me hours to re organise my hp's contacts ._. Finally done .

I hate my hair colour ttm now ! It looks like dog fur now ._. My nights are so cold these few days with my extremely powerpact air-conditioner , nao even my living room's one is so colddddd . It's like kind of irritating . Whenever i feel so freezing cold i would off it . But e' moment i off it i feels like sweating . I hate fans , i dn't on it . I'm wrapping myself up with a duper thick jacket , looks like a retard nao . Yes so cold but i'm still happily eating my tub of ice-cream ;D

Okayyyyyyyy ! I must sign an agreement with myself . I musn't order MAC for supper anymore ! It's totally killing my throat & complexion . No matter how much of masks & birdnest i drink dsn't helps if these goes on .

& i got to get my ass up at 8am ltr . Time check nao , 2.40am . I just got up at 7pm . How am i supposed to drop dead on my bed nao ? Good game .

Okay byebye . I wanna see if BS can load nao alrdy not .

" Just admit it " " No i nvr did it " " Yes you did it " " No i didn't " " I'm just playing with fire " (;