If You Were Never Like This ...

I'm sneezing non-stop now aft drenching in e' rain to hail a cab =='

Intended to study in e' 1st place but when we went to np idk why we dn't feel like studying anymore . HAHA ! Okay nehmind , so was thinking & thinking wanna go where ? End up Chambers again ! Dota for few matches & left . Eat tau huay . & J went back home . Me & Dor went np meet Esther . Bumped into Fangying . So slacked tgt at np . Esther left . & we went ECP with Sam & co . Back yishun , me & dor went chambers again ==' Lol ! Cab home , raining ;/

At Macs . Lame pics . LOL !


You want dig my nose uh ?!




Guess who's IC ?


Your hair is too long i wanna pluck em' all !


Trying to on her hp's bluetooth =='










Look like who huh ? HAHAHHAHAHA .


At ECP . See she action right ? Haha piggy back .



Omg ! Spoil image siak those MACS pictures ); Criessssssssss *

6th day .

Why am i not missing you at all ? GG .

... Things wouldn't be like how it is today (;

I know you can't stay .
So i won't be waiting , anticipating for e' fall .
I love you but in a different way .

♥ 4th day .

Though i dn't really like her , but this song is nice .

Was bored . So i blog ! I wanna change my blog skin alrdy . But i've no inspiration for now . No form ! Ha . So when i have e' 'form' i would change ! So let's see ... (LOL)

Went 2head to meet Dor , cabbed down boonlay . Walked ard jurong pt . No clothes caught my eye . So bought 2 boxes of fake eyelash . Boxes i mean for 12 pairs in a big box ! Aha . & back to 4head to meet Esther . Esther went home . So we went yishun dam to slack . & homed .

& am' still wide awake now );

Everytime dotad0tadOta . When i start to dota now , you not happy . When i dn't pei you go chambers see you dota , you not happy . When i ask you stop dota to acc me , you not happy . WHEN I ASK YOU IN E' PAST DOTA OR ME IMPT ?! YOU SAY VERY DIFFICULT TO CHOOSE ! EN' I NOT HAPPY , BECOME YOU NOT HAPPY ! WTF IS ALL THESE SHIT ?! But i will continue dota until ME happy !

Sometimes i really wanna get myself out from this misery trap . I wanna have my own life . You may be my life in e' past . But you changed everything . You build me up with all your false hopes , then kill me with your lies and empty promises . You made you loved you more & more each day from every hurt you build me up . But i'm at a stage now whereby i've no feelings anymore . But i know i can't leave you crying for me . When i try to stop loving you & i did it . That's e' part when you start to put me in your priority . Tell me , what should i do ? It ain't e' same anymore . Why am i not missing you yet you're missing me so badly now ?

Maybe i shld start being cruel . Being nice to a person is being cruel to yourself . Yes it's really that cruel , so cruel ...

His 2nd day at Brunei .

Went to some relative's wedding dinner at swiss hotel again . This is e' 3rd time i've been there for wedding dinners ! No more please . I hate wedding dinners ! Except for those relatives i'm closed with . But this time ... I dnt even know em' & see em' before . Total boring !




These are rose buds .


My lil' cousin & my bro .




Instead of cold dish , this e' 1st dish . But it taste great !


Love sharkfin ! But it's not nice this time round .




Lastly wish em' a blissful marriage ! Fyi , ey've been tgt for 12 yrs . Cool .



I had 3 drinks for today . Lol ! Chinese tea , orange & red wine .


But i love their dessert ! Didn't snap it down ); Mango sago ! Ha .
Those banquet waitress/waiters are damn clumsy ! We've been hearing all sorts of utensils dropping on e' ground . Tsk .

Yucks . I hate Next menthol light , causing me to have sorethroat . I used to smoke that . I'm used to Nextchill alrdy . Stupid shop nextchill , marlboro ice/fresh mint also dn't have !

Ytd went to meet Esther ard 4am . 4head , 2head , np , 4head & to my house slack . Damn lame right ! Zzz . & met Dor today aft my relative's wedding dinner at 2head . Cabbed home .

P/s . I dnt think you're that impt to me alrdy . Sorry . I know i've hurt you by my words .

Really lazy to blog ! B's in brunei alrdy i think ? 3 weeks of suffering there . My dad drove him to e' airport . Aft he checked in , mum , dad , bro & me went to have our supper .

Thursday .

Went ECP with b for steamboat . I treat him ! Ha . Cos' he's gg brunei & can't eat good food there so i treated him . Cb i treat him he like didn't bring me go out for occasions eat b4 luh . KNS . This kind of bf very power . Hate him .




Own customized with sambal chilli fishballs . Haha .


Cabbed back home $17++ cos' of ESTHER ANG . NB . If i ask you cabbed back you cfm won't one luh . You owe me how mnay favours alrdy ? Tmd . I this kind of friend where find ? ZZZ . & while slacking w her nothing to do . I DID THIS TO MY HAIR !! Tangled ! Had a very hard time untangled it .


I lovel0velOve dota !


Saw this at ECP dangling on e' sky . Had a hard time figuring out what is this . In e' end we still dn't know what is this !





It's 4.13am now . I'm gg dwn to meet ESTHER ANG !

I know i shldn't do this . But i'm rly very very VERY pissed off ! I can't say out to that person so can't help by typing all these out . Idk why some mothers are like this ! Take money from child but when child needs money dn't wanna give em' . Results in your child go ard buay pai seh & lend money from other ppl mothers ? F ! la . Hate it . Of cos' must bring gf go out one mah . Trying to sucked at home every weekend meh ? Cb . E' child also dn't know how to think one la . One time e' mother want give e' child money but he keep say dn't want . You know why ? Cos' other ppl de mother pity e' child give e' child money . En' e' child even one THANK YOU also didn't say just take . WTF LA ! Like that you might as well give other ppl de mother money en' your own mum right ? CCB ! Hate that family . Just feel so irritated & pek cek when i thought of these . Why these ppl only know how to take ppl's advantage ? Bobian la e' mother also this kind of ppl alrdy . F! it ! I think next time e' child married a wife huh , he give half his pay to his mother . What about his wife & his own child ? EAT SAI ALRDY LO ! En' dn't need to give e' other mother who always feed him with money de uh ? It's totally not fair la ! Knn .
If you ask me , i would say i hate em' for sure ! PEK CEK PEK CEK X 100000000000 !!!!! I dn't care if you like it or not , is that family make all things that let ppl hate it one okay ! CB .

Maybe i'll just leave it dead . My blog , i mean . Life's a bore ! I'm just living for e' sake of living . My great grandmother just got admitted into e' hosp ytd . Hope everything is fine for her (; Many prays* I'm still missing my grandfather still . We shld not cry cos' its over but instead smile cos' it happened before right ? Got my meaning ? I just forgotten how to phrase it out ;/

Days before went chambers dota with dor , xiu , ahxiang & yang . Before that went amk to help banana choose his top for weichye's wedding . Lol ! $59.90 . We didn't check e' price at 1st .

Saturday .
Attended Weichye's & Renata's wedding ! Congrats uh (; Didn't took any photos . Busy eating . Haha ! Ey' got nice food there . & cabbed home .

& this sat attending another relative's wedding . & on nov got another relative's wedding gg on again ==' Have been attending so many wed's this year .

Sunday .
Intended to go out w b . But he snooze off e' alarm !! !#$%^&*@ Woke up very late . & went 7head to eat tau huay (;

He's gg brunei for a mth ); SIAN LO !

My fringe is growing !! Fast fast grow long . Hehehahahohoxsxsz .

Just dota-ed finished w bb ! Cool eh . I've got dominating . Very cool alrdy hor for noob like me . HAHAHA ! See see ! We same same for kills & assist kills . But i died one more time en' him );
I'm weiweeei & he's chch- on e' scourge .








SIANNNNNNNNN X1000000000000000000 . What shld i do to get myself to sleep ? o.O

离开你我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛。

I've nth to blog but i just feel like ranting out ! Just came back home from drinking in boatquay . Was feeling very tired in e' 1st place but when i turned on my lappy i'm so energised . Aha !

You taught me everything . You taught me how to be strong from countless hurts you gave me . You taught me how to priorities my friends rather en' you like how you priorities your friends .
You taught me how to pick myself up when i fall in your trap .

We can never turned back e' time . You're e' one who taught me everything .

So what if you're now feeling e' same like how i felt in e' past ? Have you ever had my image flashing thru your mind whenever you did things that would hurt me badly ?

I've been waiting & waiting .. Tell me , how long more shld i wait for a person to change ? It's enough . It's long enough . Full stop . You wanna change dn't wanna change , i'm gonna HECK CARE ! Like how you heck care me in e' past .

No more no. 1 .

That incident will stop haunting in my mind from now on . But i'll never ever forget it !
Never will i ...

我学会了什么叫做坚强。

Vivian Hsu .

She's so pretty & hot ! I love her ;D

I CAN'T WAIT FOR SOMETHING ! DOR YOU KNEW IT ! Aha !

I really think i had enough . I hate you , i hate you , i hate you ! Even after 2 years you still don't understand me in a single wee bit . & i dn't think i trust you at all . Countless lies . Countless disappointments . Countless f! up shits you gave me . Everything ! So fake to me . Let's pretend tgt until e' day i can really let go .

Last min decision went swimming at safra with Dor . Lend 3 floats from lil' kids there . Haha ! We're more like dipping & making a fool out of ourselves in e' water en' to swim . Laughing non stop in e' pool . Idk why ! Haha . Damn funny , tell you . & went arcade to Para para . & homed .

1 peeeeeekture . Look at my very CMI fringe . Rl more CMI , hao bu hao ? Jia lat !

Went 1v1 dota with a mad guy just now , hahaha !

Let's start off w a word , L-A-Z-Y . Idk why ? & i hate my fringe to e' core now ! I look like a 14 yrs old girl now ); It's above my brows ! I wanna cry everytime i looked into a mirror . Drop that heartbreaking topic . Went chambers just now to dota with Xiu & Dor . Slacked at 7head . & went to meet Fangying for awhile . That's how boring my life is . Everyday 7head ==' Oh yea ! I got myself a new fone ! LGKF350 e' ice cream fone ! Hehs . Cool . Search high lows ard Chongpang for it . & stupid Xiu kept complaining ==' He too long didn't get whack by me alrdy . I can't find it elsewhere for e' past few days ! Cos' my fave PINK is OOS .

Saturday went town with bb . Bought nothing ); & Sunday went bugis , got myself a dress . He took MC & book in on mon . See , that's why i'm lazy & dn't rly wish to blog . There's nothing specific for me to blog ! My life is so so so boring !

Okay . I finally found my cable ! B tidied my room & i can't find it for e' past few days .
I've like many outdated photos . That's when my fringe length was acceptable . But now , really CMI .





Love baked rice !


My new concealer !




My new bb cream !


Let me haolian awhile can ? Very blurr la . Cos' i took kanjiong to take dwn ltr i die . Hahaha . Brown name is meeeeeeee ! (; See who says i'm noob ?! HAHAHA . Kidn' la .







He's just a sec 3 boy . Don't bully him okay ? LOL .


My bloody fringe damn short .



For no reasons i like her alot ! Haha . Her dancing is superb !


I can't sleep ); How ?!!!!