Check out my new blog song ! Wilber Pan ft. Akon . Omg . It's so nice & cool ! Akon's voice is so unique . Love his voice ;D & Wilber Pan is so shuaaaaaaaaaaaaaai can ! Ha !

& i just came back from Amk hub with baby . Intended to watch Night at the musuem . But i'm too tired so went home early (; Dined at Pepper Lunch . Been so long since i last ate . Ha , last yr i always went Pepper Lunch to eat with Daniel . Like crazy over it . 1 week we can eat 2-3 times ! Siao right . Eat till i'm so scared of it . Smell of it makes me puke . But now okay alrdy la ! ;D Blog later .

Enjoy !

CHINA PEOPLE ARE OUTRAGEOUS !

Oh my . My dad iphone is lost ! He puts it in his luggage as he alrdy has 2 hp on hand with him . & his luggage was checked-in . Checked-in okay ?! & guess what ? When he reached sg' . He found out that people actually meddled his stuffs inside his luggage . & his fone was lost . Even e' charger e' thief took it . This is ridiculous . He's gonna lodge a complaint . F! China people . Ey' always said Singaporeans despise em' .Not people want to despise you all . But those things china people did is such a disgrace to em'self & their country . Eggs , fruits , alchoholic drinks , sausage & even milk powder also fake . See , all those things ey' did . Kaos . Screw em' upside dwn !! Somemore e' fone is so exp . Give me e' money i can shop till i drop in GSS . Damn em' . 1st time in my family our things are stolen man ! No one encountered it before . Including me ! Me ah ? Once la , i dropped my wallet in pri school ); & lost . Lucky only $4 inside . Lols !

School as usual . Damn lethargic today . Body ache again . Jialat ! Dn't knw what happen , maybe i old alrdy la . Bishan new circle line has started ! I'm finding e' exit D entrance ( nearest to my school ) but .. i can't get my way out . Call me sua ku la ! Like stupid only . I still went by e' old entrance . Have to walk all e' way to passby j8 , interchange & en' to my school =='

After school dismissed , we're waiting for cars to pass & getting ready to cross e' road . & a girl dashed acrossed . Almost got knock dwn by e' bus . By just a few inches !! It's exactly like those accident in TV dramas ! Those seen on tv shows do happen in our everyday life . She want like that also dn't do infront of me mah . This is too scary for me . I'm just a few metres away from her . If she's knocked dwn & if it's a fatal one i tell you i cfm need to consult a psychiatrist . I old alrdy la , cannot take this kind of blow . Scared e' wits out of me can !!

& was on e' fone with Chin Fang Ying this afternoon . She's damn disgusting i tell you ! She showed me her 12 ulcers on her mouth in fb . Ohmy . Get well soon bitch ! I love you many okay ! ;D

I really have nothing to blog . I dn't feel like writing anything . Sayo !
But i do have many things to type . I just forgot everything in a midst of time . Shit .

Why huh ? Everytime i put someone as my priority , e' person only treats me an option . Shit ! Not talking about baby . Is someone else . Real damn disappointed ! Like fxck only !

Too tired . Really tired . I need to sleep ! I need to sleep ! I have to stop gaming ! Games will drive me crazy ! Omg ! Stop it Weiwei !

& i'm getting bb a ralph lauren polo tee . He likes it . Pok alrdy ! Lols . Yay yay he's booking out tmr .

This post looks so messy to me =X

Crazily In Love With Raymond Lam !

I tell you , just now when i randomly switch to channel 55 . I saw my Lam Fung( In cantonese ) /Lin Feng ! Like one crazy woman shouting & shouting he's so handsome ! Omg . I'm gg to faint alrdy la . If ah ... If ah ... I say if he's my boyfriend for just 1 day .. Dn't want 1 day la too short le . 1 week ? For just 1 week , i will be e' most ' Xin Fu ' girl in e' world !! I tell you , no one can win him . He is just too cute & ... Omg . Dnt say le . Ltr i think of him until cannot sleep .

Sorry la baby . I too excited le . I love e' most is cfm you one person okay ! ;D

Today is Lit lesson ! & double yay ! Nope , not for Lit . Cos' tmr is English ! Lovin' it ! I'm always so excited for English classes . No doubt . But i'm lazy to write compo you know ? It's my homework anw . Well well , a total of 3 guys joined me in school now ! 1st is Satheeson 2nd is Steven & 3rd is Zhiwei ! I'm always bored on tues & thurs ); I've gt Satheeson to acc. me in class on mon . & Zhiwei to acc. me during break time on wed , we're different class . Still got him to acc. me trained back Yishun . Haha ! Went dwn to look for him during break time today . Crapping session non-stop . Cannot stop laughing when seeing him ==' & after school went Mos burger to takeaway food . He gey siao want bring my burger & fries back ! Tmd ! Back to topic . Lit is boring today . & my backbone ache so much la ! Fault lies on e' bloody chair . Spoiled one leys ! Can't lean ); Ass . Annoyed with my Restaurant city , e' toiletbowl always dirty ! & needs to be clean oftentimes ;/

Why am i getting lazier & lazier each day ? Picturesssssss ! Where are you ? I feel like sleeping now . But i dn't wanna sleep !

I learn a new quote in class today !
' Dn't let trouble trouble you ..... ' & e' rest i forget alrdy . Zzz . Old alrdy . Stm getting more & more jialat .

& e' stupid blogshop owner finally replied me . Getting on my nerves alrdy ! She gan LL la ! Cb . Now i think she self email all customers . Bcos' there's one customers tried to say good things about her that she dsnt scam & SAL is taking a very long time to reach us all that shit . & she replied me saying that one of e' customer also mail everyone say that SAL needs a very long time to reach . How would she know ?! Her email is not there ?! & she wouldn't probably be so lame to e' extend to mail herself what ?! Weird girl indeed . Dn't care her la , as long i can get my lens or money back . Pls do not order DUEBA LENS !

Gaming time ! Toodles .

I miss e' army boy which is sleeping in his camp's bunk now !

I dn't knw what to do in life . I feel so lost . No one understand . Dn't try to tell me you do . Cos' you dn't ! & dn't even try to understand .

Sometimes i wish i could tell you ...

I couldn't give a damn what you say to me
I don't really care what you think of me
'Cause either way you're gonna think what you believe
There's nothing you could say that would hurt me
I'm better off without you anyway
I thought it would be hard but I'm okay
I don't need you if youre gonna be that way
'Cause with me it's all or nothing

I'm sick of this shit
Don't deny
You're a waste of time
I'm sick of this shit
Don't ask why I hate you now
So go away from me
You're gone
So long I can do better I can do better
Hey! Hey you!
I found myself again
That's why you're gone

I can do better I can do better
You're so full of shit
I can't stand the way you act
I just can't comprehend
I don't think that you can handle it I'm way over -
over it I will drink as much Limoncello as I can
And I'll do it again and again
I don't really care what you have to say

'Cause you know -
you know you're nothing I'm sick of your shit
Don't deny You're a waste of time
I'm sick of your shit
Don't ask why
Get outta my face Hey hey
You're not my taste Hey hey
I am so Sick of you (Sick of you)
You're on my nerves
I want to puke Get outta my face
Hey hey You're not my taste
hat's why You're gone (You're gone)
I can do better I can do better

It's all in this lyrics . But i dn't feel like . I dn't wish to tell . I dn't wanna hurt you . I dn't wanna lead to a wrong decision . I hate you , but i love you even more . This is so cruel . God , pls be easy on me ! R/s are e' toughest stuffs to handle . Just like what Satheeson says . Right ? That's why some people choose to stay single . But are we gonna be single all e' way ? I dn't wanna be a old mummy ); I dn't wanna have a old aged marriage . Maybe for now .

See , you dn't understand ! This is e' process of growing up ? I tend to know more things on e' outside world . I learnt to be independant . Yes i am independant . I can do almost everything on my own . I handle everything alone w/o gg to any of my friends . COS' IT IS USELESS ! No one understands ! I hate girls who rely on boyfriends ! Ey're useless ! I came across a girl in my sec sch , every trouble she came up with she'll cry to her bf . Even fights too . Whenever she's in trouble , you cfm can find her bf beside her . Dn't knw her bf is kpoh or what ! She's 1yr my senior . Aft fights , she thinks she's so cool or whatever ? Zzz . Kept writing on her blog . She's not under e' lian category what ? I think she has attitude prob only , nt that kind of lian . & she acts like one & she even categories herself as one . UNTIL NOW !! Why shld people haolian in this kindda' stuffs ? I think its a disgrace to yourself ! Is not as if , you win a million bucks ==' Despise . I think even now , she still rely . Although isn't e' same bf . =='

I need baby . But i dn't rely on hm . In fact , probs with my friends or family matters i seldom go to him . & he dn't rly understands me . Dn't rly know what's happening ard me . I dn't think there's a need to tell him everything . Some kind of stuffs is no need to be said . But i still share other secrets with you ! Haha .

I am proud to be myself .

Enough of my ranting ! I feel better aft this post . Back to restaurant city !

Exhausted .





Many many photos . So so lazy to upload ! Ugh !

Nothing much up lately . Same old routine . Same phases of life . School as usual . Went for history lesson today . I'm like so early today ! I reached there at 7.10pm & fyi my class starts at 7pm . But my history teacher is always late ;/ Only 7 classmates were there . Slowly e' rest came . & today history lessons has so few ppl lo . Before that went j8 walk walk with baby . I dreamt of eating ' muah chee ' in my dream so went there to buy ==' lame hor ? Played rock fever & bought a top at cotton on . Tmr gg buy again ! Sales ! Lovin' it . & afterthat baby fetched me to school & off he went .. back his camp ! ); Freezed my pet society in fb . But restaurant city is active back ! Ha . Busy decorating my stuffs & deco my life away there . Lame ==" Exp points there is like so difficult to earn . Bored like always with my life ! Baby booked in just now ); He booked out ytd . He came straight back to my house when i was sleeping , i didn't know he was in my house until i woke up . He fetched me to school & waited me for 2hrs plus in school until i was dismissed . Poor thing him sleeping at my school foyer chair . Ha ! Maths class is always fun with Satheeson ard ! I think we're e' noisiest of all in maths class . I know he is always angry at me when i'm late ); Ha ! Cos' i insisted him to 'chop' place for me . & when other classmate wanted to sit at my so called 'chop' place he said to our classmate there's someone sitting there & it makes e' person & HIM damn paiseh ! HAHAHA . At last also suck thumb chop for me say he dsn't want strangers to sit beside him . I feel so honoured & dramatic with him saying i'm remorseful for being late ! Lol . Tmr is Lit's class . Somehow i'm enjoying it , dn't knw why ? But still as boring as ever . Those prose , poet & everything . Driving me crazy ! I hate to read , i would fall asleep .

Yay ! Finally my DS can play alrdy la ! With e' help of baby helping me to delete away some un interesting games inside . Memory full !!!!!! Ass . & baby helped me to download Cooking Mama 2 ! It's much more nicer en' Cooking Mama 1 . Double Yay !

Super super boring now ); Any entertainments ? Other en' fb i got nothing else to do . & i'm still very angry with e' http://www.desirable-chic.blogspot.com/ . Cb scammer ! I tag her & mail her just now , again she didn't reply . Angry ! Super angry ! Super duper angry ! Fxck her . Curse & swear her la ! Ughhhhhhh !

GSS is cominggggggg ! I'm gonna shop till i drop !

What The Fxck !

This blogshop . www.desirable-chic.blogspot.com dn't knw wtf e' girl is doing . I've ordered my dueba lens from her 4mths ago . Have been patiently waiting for my lens arrival as i know dueba lens will take a longer period en' geo lens . But it has been ridiculously 4mths ! I've not yet received . & all she does is to tell us to wait & she can't do anything about it . When ppl mail her or tag her about e' lens , all she do is to say she'll do a mass mailing to all when e' lens has reached . Cb , i also can memorise her words alrdy la . Or there's someone who tagged her regrading e' arrival of lens , she claimed that is her assistance who tagged for her . But i think she's self tagged . Saying that e' owner of e' blog is nt free , her chapalang words ji tua loo la . I ordered 2 lens leys . One for mine & one for my mum . Not cheap somemore . Mail her , tagged her also no reply . E' only thing she does is to mass mail all . Knn dn't knw is scammer or what .

Anyone also prder dueba lens from her ? Tag me ah !

If she's rly a scammer i make sure she spit out my money back to me . Nb !
Waste my time & money . Know earlier order from another blogshop .

Wait A Minute .

Lazy to blog about my weekends . It's like family day these few days ==' 500 yrs once i would go out with em' . Bcos' baby is with me mah ! Ha ;D Hmm , Iluma @ bugis , Chinatown , Suntec , Marina Sq , Raffles City & i've forgotten where i've went . Shall update soooooon !

Misses everyone .

Gong gong , today which is 22nd May . It's your 49 days . I know you'll be gg to a far far away place from us . & never meet again . Maybe you'll forget who were we anymore . Maybe you'll forget everything in this life anymore . I really hope i can be in e' same family , your granddaughter next life again . This yr i can't celebrate your bday' with you , next life i hope i can do it every year with you . You're so great . I'll love you always & you'll never be forgotten .

I've Forgotten .

I've forgotten what was happiness , surprises , overjoyed & everything containing e' word happy whichever you can think up of ? Why me ? All i know was disappointment . I dn't know what are tears anymore ? Because all i know was i'm overjoyed with tears . No more . I've forgotten who i was ? What was my true identity . Everything . I hate it . I hate it . I hate it .

Why isn't it others ? Fxcktard .
I'll hate you now & forever . I'll never ever forget what you've done .
Now , i only know revenge is what i've always wanted . Nothing else .
In e' past , now , & forever . It's still e' same .

I am still me . I won't change for anyone . Especially you , you & you !
So please dn't tell me how to change for a better me .
You've no rights to do so . You ain't my priority anymore .
Whatever from your mouth is bullshit to me , i'll never listen again .
Whatever you do , my trust for you will nvr be mended anymore .

WHATEVER . Even if you die . Okay ? So please . Go ahead with your nonsense & bullshit . I am on all ears now . But no more i'll take it seriously to my heart .

Where do i stand now , what outcome i've ended up with . In e' future , it'll be your turn . Cos' you reap what you sow . Dn't blame anyone . Blame it for your greediness . Karma .

Whatever i've done is for you sake , can you tell me why have i landed in this state now ?
Everytime i looked into you eyes , i feel like crying ...

Once , there was a very naughty boy . His father can't take his nonsense anymore . Whichever one slightest mistake e' lil' boy did , his father drilled a hole into his room's wall . E' boy ignored still . Until one day , he found out his room's wall was filled with hundreds of hole . He was disgusted with it & told his father he'll be a good boy from today onwards & begged his father not to drill it anymore . So his father told him , whichever one good deed you did i'll mend one hole . Days passes by , all e' hole has been mended . & his father paint his wall all over again . E' boy whispered to himself , finally it was all beautiful again but there's still some error with it . So , he think & think again what was those errors ? & he talked to himself , so what it's all mended ? There's still ugly scars behind those walls . Some things that we've done , can't be undone . Just like trust . Once you've hurt someone , so what you've changed ? Those memories & scars will still be left behind . It can't be mended with anything in this world anymore . It'll not be as perfect as what you were in e' past ...

Miracles Dosen't Happens .

I'm very tired . Dozing off just nw while i was youtube-ing . Ugh ! But i can't seems to sleep now yet i'm very tired ); Went Lit's lesson today like finally ? My attendance is very bad for Lit's class . Heard from Satheeson & Steven that Zhiwei is having class today . But didn't managed to see him during break . Aft class was dismissed i bump into him . Ha ! Took train with him back to yishun . Lots of craps to talk about . He's still e' same , always disiao-ing me . Nvr change . & i saw Wee Kiat today ! Like finally aft 3yrs ! Haha . But i didn't realised he was just beside me shouting my name out loud as i was listening to mp3 . He called me & say he's damn paiseh when he shouted my name out . Used to write letters to him when he's in boy's hm planning when to meet when he has his homeleave . But aft he was discharged we seldom contact . Until now we still hvn't catch up with each other . Ha ! & I miss Adrian Toh laa ! Faster come out . Pray time flies okay !

Ou of a sudden , i have e' urge to perm my hair ==' Well maybe not perm ? I might regret aft perming . Did temp curls on my hair ytd & just now . I dn't think e' outcome is nice . E' top of my hair is so flat . ==' When i curl e' bottom it looks so ' pong ' ! Ugh ! I need to do something to volume my hair .

I'm very very hungry now ! How ?!

Why is there strange sound ard me ? Creeeeeeeepyy ... ~ * See la ! I dn't dare to sleep alrdy ); How ? Siao liao lo .

她和他的爱情故事。

How it all begins ...

I used to hate him alot . Ha ! I dn't know why ? Maybe bcos' of his face . Once , he sent me a msg thru friendster claiming that i'm very familiar . I was his friend's gf back then . So i didn't really bother about him . & we acted like strangers for mths or almost a year ? I live my life , he live his . For no reasons , he was in my MSN list . We did chat casually on MSN . But i dn't really bother about him or takes his words seriously , to me he is just another ' hongster ' at that time . LOL ! I really had no idea why was he in my MSN ? ==' & i went MIA for mths to him again ! Not to him , but using e' comp . That was when ' Bugis ' was my hometown , & i went dwn everyday w/o failed to ton there with my friends . When did we actually talked ? On mid 07' i assumed ? That was when i broke up with my ex bf . I was very very depressed that time . Crying everyday as though my tears are free flowed . I wanted a changed in my life . I stopped gg dwn bugis everyday but occasionally , stayed at home , slacked at 4head with my cliques & i forgot what else i did that time . I changed everything , my blog url , my email , my friends & my attitude . When i'm done adding up those people from my past MSN list . I'm finally online ! Being so frustrated with everyone in my MSN . People kept nudging me asking who am i yet i've written clearly my past email add in my nick . & en' he came pm-ing me who i was & everything . I scolded him ! Haha ! & en' he finally know who was i . He told me i've MIA-ed from MSN for such a long time . & .. again ... i went MIA from my comp again ! That was e' time when i was crazy over clubs . Went clubbing almost every week . & finally , i met him in a chapalang club ! Ha ! Red Bar ? E' 1st thing he talked to me or ask , is something which made me pissed . He asked where was my ex ? Knowing that we've broken up . Is he stupid or what ?! Went into e' club 2nd flr whereby there's a pool table . Watched him played pool . He's so slow ! Cos' i wanna play with Adrian . Waited & waited . No government want sia ! Alrdy told em' we're next yet his friends played aft his round . Z ! Angry ! So , we decided not to play . Me & my friends went dwn to e' dance flr . I left my drink on e' table . I went back to e' danceflr again . When i turned back for my drink it was all finished up ! By who ? Stupid hoong ! ' Ice kosong ' leys ? Also not his fave coke ! He also wanna glurp it all . But his friends also took part in finishing my drink ;/ But he was e' last to touch my cup i saw him happily munching e' ice . & en' Melanie kept asking him for ciggs . He gave his last stick to her . At least gentleman la . Of cos' gentleman la , e' pack of cig also not his ! Is Ahxiang one lo ==' Finished club , went back 4head . I saw him again ! At that time in my mind was ' SUAY ! ' He & his friends sat at 418 . While me & my friends sat at 417 . Sat awhile . Went homed . When i'm online , for no reasons we started to talk . & i told him i'll help Mel to return his ciggs if he's rly so geh gao . Haha ! E' whole topic was about my ex . Asking him to help us get back tgt all those shit . & i knw he thinks i'm very irritating . He also admit ); KNS one la he . He said if e' whole topic is about me & him it's okay , but e' whole topic dsn't concern him & it's about me & my ex . Laughs ! Friendster testimonials was in e' trend back then . He monial-ed me what dancer bla la la next time go club again bla la la . He siao one ! & he wanted to meet me out to slack & smoke . But he thought i stayed very far , so in e' end he say next time . Siao one ! He want meet me , aft awhile say next time . I think he's e' irritating one . I told him where i stayed . He's so surprised . Cos' i stayed e' blk beside his only . Still say good , next time can always meet me slack when he's sian & acc. him eat . See , macham i sparetyre . So we met out & talked alot of stuffs like 500 yrs didn't met . This continues ... We meet each other almost everyday . Sky from dark till bright . Siao one . Seldom talked on fone cos' we meet each other everyday . Know why everyday ? Cos' he say 我们很谈的来. Ha ! Talking about all kinds of craps . Saying he hate bugis , saying i hate yishun . Saying his past go whack people etc etc . Sibei haolian ! He was also there for me when i was down . When i need someone to be my listener . Gave me advices . & he did hint me that he likes me & all that . Asking me to be tgt with him ? But i dn't really go bother . Ha ! On 220707 , i was at my friend's house . He asked me to be his gf ! Lots of thoughts gushing thru my mind . Some friends say try it out some say dn't . So you all should knw what was my answer .

& .. we're tgt till now ! (;
2 more mths to 2years . Time flies .

We have been thru lots of obstacles in this journey . With every hurt he did to me , that's when i learn to become stronger as each hurts goes by . With every quarrels , he gave in to me . He didn't shout or scold me back whichever way . I was e' one who is there shouting & shouting at him . All he did , was to keep quiet . Listening to what i've said . Some negative words i said to him making him lose his pride . Knewing i was very very hot-tempered . He still tolerated me for my nonsense . Be it my fault or others , which does not concern his fault at all , I still take it out from him (拿他来出气) . All he did was silently watching me scolding him . & he changed everything for me .

But .. sometimes he can just drive me to my grave immediately !
He's e' guy i love & hate .

But there's one thing i know . There is no forever love . He/she will still have to leave you one day . To a far .. faraway place , which you'll nvr get to see him/her again in your life ...

As usual i was late for maths lesson today . Dad fetched me there . Crapping session again with Satheeson & Steven . After maths class ended , trained back with Steven as Satheeson's mum is fetching him back from school .

Watching 娛樂百分百 & some random videos in Youtube now . Boring , boring can ! I wanna change hairstyle , any idea ? Time check - 4.36am now . I can't sleep ! I'm expected to be late again for tmr lessons );

Mum went shopping today . & she bought me fake eyelash & a cute mirror !

Guess what is this ?

Mirror !

In addition . Some lovelies to pamper my hair .

Luo Zhi Xiang teaching By2 his dance . Lols , buay tahan Luo Zhi Xiang . Can't stop laughing ;D


This is nice .

I know you browse my blog . Xiao mei mei , pls dn't copy my way of typing & how my blog formats . Loathesome . Dn't knw why this kind of people still exist . You're so back dated . Dn't self proclaimed yourself as what ? M...m..model ? Turns me off =X

I Don't Want A Boyfriend , I Need A Real Man .
Listening to Jolin's new album songs now . 大丈夫 is nice !

As usual stayed over at grandma's house over e' weekends ! Well , next wk will be e' last wk i'm staying over . Cos' gong gong 49days is over soon . This friday . I miss him alot ! Hmms . Po po & mum say he'll be gg other place after his 49days . Is it true ? There's still alot of things in this world that i've to find out . Ha ! Where'll he be gg ? Anybody knows ? Dn't talked about gong gong alrdy , if i'm gonna continue to write about him my tears will be free flow again . Just hope that wherever he is , he'll be happy ! If he's happy , i am too (; Next life , i would like to meet him again (; If .. there is something that is called ' next life ' But everyone only gets to live once ? Question marks (?) If there is ' next life ' i wanna be with e' same family i had with me now . Ey're so impt to me .

Friday , went to joejoe's 1 yr old bday' ! He's so cute ;D He's so hyperactive when i carried him . Ha !

Saturday , went ssdc acc. baby to enroll for his bike license .



& we're hesitating where should we go next ? Baby suggest to eat steamboat at Novena . Regretted eating ==' E' food not nice at all la ! Guess what ? We're e' only customer in that restaurant . Z !

See ?





Tomyam & chicken soup base .





& this is stupid . Damn my eyebags . ( See , when we're gonna eat finish , these are e' 2nd pathetic e' restaurant have )


& next destination ? I dn't feel like gg orchard / bugis . So we went marina sq. instead . This is e' 1st time , i spent so lil' out today ! Baby pays for everything . Know why ? Bcos' it's his pay day just nice . That's why he can enroll bike license & pay for me . Ha ! He bought 2 tops from CHAOS for me . I'm trying to save his $$ but he kept saying ' buy la if you like ' Cost him $60 =='




Got this from Muji . Organic green tea ! Nice & healthy .


& he say when his next pay comes , he wanna buy me a handphone . He really cannot save his money . I must help him save alrdy ! Aft that went suntec to see if there's any exhibition hall ? Not even 1 ==' & went to walked ard . Went ToyRus . He bought toys for my bro . & back to granny's place . While baby went to meet his campmates . He say he'll be back early . When i woke up ard 3am plus i didn't see him sleeping beside me . So angry with him ! He 4am en' rch home . Nehneh .

Sunday , went sembawang shopping center , northpoint & went Taste Of Thailand to eat with baby . Back to granny's place . Slept for an hour & baby book in alrdy ); My mum went hm to do her comp stuffs & baby asked her to bring cereals for him . My mum brought a mountain of cereals for him . Laughs !


Bus to ys interchange .



Things i bought .






There's still more , didn't snap it dwn .

My bro ' zi pai ' from my fone .


Which fone shld i get ? Samsung F480 or LG ice cream ? But of cos' both fone is in pink ! I love pink ! Pretty in pink ! I cannot tahan my LG Viewty alrdy . Sucks !

My dad is finally back from overseas aft 1 mth of work .

I miss my bb ! Have to wait for every friday ); & happy happy ! Cos' dor boyf also kena Ndp performance . So i can go watch with her if both our bfs can get for us tix ! ;D

Pain Will Be Gone , But Scars Remain .

& NOW I FEEL LIKE KILLING , SMASHING MY LAPPY , OPEN MY WINDOW & THROW DWN BCOS' OF YOUTUBE ! I uploaded a video for exeggerating almost 1 hr , yes 1 hour before & i was watiting it to upload finish & i can jolly well tohave my sleep . & now , 1hr later ! Youtube tells me this ' Upload Failed: An unknown error occurred. ' Waste my time ! Shit . Omg !

I've nothing to blog . Seems like my blog is getting extreme boring to e' max la ! No pics just words . But i totally lost interest in blogging ! I'm getting lazier & lazier each day . How ? Didn't went for Lit's lesson just nw . I went to meet dor & her friends at np instead . Slacked ard at np & 921 . Me & Dor can't help but just laughing at her friend's silly actions . Funny people to be with . As usual went to play Housofthedead4 & ddr . Ha ! & chatted about kbox stuffs that happens there & many ghostly rumours about it . Such a coincidence that both our stories are somewhat e' same . Eeerie place ~ I shld go partyworld next time instead of kbox ! Haha .

My pet society in fb is .. Certify . Yes , dead ! E' exp is stucked there . & i'm lazy to make visits to other pets . Ugh ! But i've bought a num of stuffs to decorate my rm . Pok alrdy ! Buy & buy . Can't help . I love to buy things . Even in games ! Petsociety , maple & everything ! Ha . Wasting money , oops i mean in maple . I think i've wasted over $300 on maple prepaid cards . I've stopped playing alrdy & deleted maplestory on my desktop . Crazy over maple over a period of time , kept wasting money to go dwn krislan almost every week for e' sake of mapling getting zak & whatever shit . Z ! Regrets* I can buy gucci on sale leys just need to top up a lil' more to e' $300 );

Actually i've some photos to upload . I'm just so lazy to click e' word ' Upload ' ! What's wrong with me ? Alrighty , tmr's eng lesson ! I'm lovin' it !

I feel like sleeping . I need to sleep . But .. Insomnia can kill , you know ! 4.27am now . Gosh . I dn't wanna be a night owl . Sucks to be one . Cos' when you wakeup , your complexion will be ... , eyelids heavy & etc etc etc .. Understand ? Okay understandable .

Sometimes i hate myself . But sometimes i am proud of myself for e' lj things i did .. to you ?! Ha , jealousy leads to hatred . You can't get e' things you want , but i can . So maybe that's e' reason why you hate me ? So what ? I am proud of myself . To me you're .. hmm .. uhm .. a Big time loser maybe ? Ha ! Talking things behind me to other people ? You just want em' to hate me as much as you isn't it ? Why are you so pathetic have to waste your time to talk about me ? ); You're just making me pop by advertising free for me . Thanks for that ! Might as well try to get a job as a advertiser ? Laughs ! You can never bring me down . Rmbr it on your bloody brain girl . Looks like i've such high esteem huh ? Oh my . Laughs

I AM PROUD OF MYSELF ! I AM PROUD OF IT !
Bcos' i believes in karma . What you reap is what you sow . Bitch . No worries i dn't hate you . Cos' you're nowhere to be found in my heart . I dn't regard or catergorise you under ' humans ' ? I know you do read my blog . See ? This shows where am i standing in your heart .

Shiat . I feel like puking aft typing e' last italic sentence .

'Cause tonight is the night when two become one . on 4/4/09

I'm so tired of gg school . On a week cfm 1 or 2 days i won't be gg . Kick off that bad habit of mine can ! & baby just told me he's gonna perform at Ndp . Sian ! National Day i have to stay at home to watch fireworks on tv alrdy ); Damn my lappy ! When i'm surfing e' net halfway all e' windows are closed . Damn ! Intending to upload pictures , But very pekcek with my lappy . Dn't feel like uploading anymore ! Ugh ! Think i'm gg sleep alrdy . Sayo ! Tmr is Lit lessons . Sian million times !

You can choose not to read e' bottom . I just blogged this out to make myself feel better .

There's no love forever . ' Two will eventually become one ' Humans will die . Either your husband or wife will leave you first & that is when two become one . Wonder how does it feels like when there's no love ?


Tell me , how can i not miss my grandfather ? I can't even hear his last words to me on e' day he left us . He can't even see me . He has no strength at all ! I didn't even called him when i rushed dwn to e' hospital . E' moment i saw him i was lost for words . I dn't knw how to react . All i know is to cry & cry . My heart ache so much to see him with oxygen mask on & grasping for air trying to breathe so hard . Trying hard not to let his breath go away . I'm staying at his place on every weekend . My house has all his photos put out . Even my wallet has his photo . Everywhere , everything & even some songs reminds me of him . How can i not miss him ?! I'm wondering every night where is he now ? What is he doing ? Can he hear what i've talked to him ? Does he know i miss him ? & i dn't knw is there such a thing at netherworld or reicarnation ? Why is there so many (question marks) in this world ? Does he still rmb me ? I miss him calling me 'ah girl' . I know i can nvr hear him call me again . Nvr in my life again . I still can't take my mind off that scene at hospital to watch his breathe stop . My eyes was glued to e' thingy that goes up & dwn like stocks ? To calculate his heartbeat or smth like a meter ? E' moment it gets lower & lower everyone's shouting went louder & louder & when e' meter went straight there goes a sound ' deeeeeee ' At that time i prayed & prayed that god would nt take my grandfather away . Everybody shouted for him to come back & wake up . My relatives , my grandfather's friend , cousins , aunties almost everyone create a din beside his bed side to ask him not to leave us all . Even e' nurse that attended my grandfather cried . Can you imagine 20+ ppl close to 30 occupied e' whole room crying & shouting ? Do you know ? Losing a kin is far more worst en' losing your bf ! This is e' 1st time i cried so hard & cried so long . 1st time ! & i hope it will be e' last time . I dn't want to see any of my family members leaves me again . I rly cannot take e' blow i tell you . I cfm will go crazy . Cos' family is e' most impt thing to me . I rly hope i would die 1st .

I'm sorry . I'm a very emotional person & i can breakdown very easily . I dn't feel like talking this to anybody but here blogging will do . This is not a r/s problem . My friends dn't knw how to handle it . & i dn't think i have a need to talk to em' this prob . I just feel like blogging . & i rly hope my grandfather knows i missed him alot . Next life , i wanna be his granddaughter again . I know my mum felt e' same way too . He's just so great .

I totally have no mood to go shopping with friends or meet up with em' .

But if my grandfather is rly happy on e' other world . I will too be very happy for him . I'll be million times happier to see him happy (; Now e' next which i worried e' most is my grandmother & my great grandmother . I've nvr thought that my granfather would be e' 1st to leave us . So so so unexpected .

You're A Big Time Loser .

I've got millions of things to rant ! But i've no time to blog ! Have to go granny's house alrdy . & i've so many things to carry . Who wanna help me ? );

People will say things behind your back if you did something wrong right ? Common sense . Why shld you be angry about ? Why not reflect your mistakes & think ? I very sian alrdy la ! & basic stuffs you dn't know ? Furthermore , i need someone to be my listening ear & rant things out i'll feel better . You think you felt this way ? I tell you , i am none better feeling en' you . Why can't you think for what have you done ? & what you hvn't been doing your best instead of turning your head towards me ? F ! You didn't play your part well & who are you to say me ?! Quarrels ? Why shld i quarrel with you ? It's bcos' of smth you did pissed me off . Sometimes i'm in e' wrong , i did apologise . When i'm trying to talk nicely , what yout f!ing tell me ? You dn't even think for goodness sake where are you at fault ? If you think i'm immature , what are you ? You're older en' me . Common sense i'm nt that mature en' you in actions . But comes to r/s ? You always think it in your way . Yes , i want thngs to go by my way ? Who dsn't ? Why did i want things in my way ? Cos' you dn't knw where to draw a line ! Everything needs time management . Everything needs to be fair . Once or twice its okay . But is everytime ! So nw you knw why i want things in my way ? F ! Spoil my mood .

自导自演。

By2 new album / songs .

I think this MV is quite similar to BOA Eat You Up ?


& this song is nice !


Their new hairstyle is a total goner ==' Ey' look prettier on their 1st album . Dn't you think so ? But still pretty & cute la ! Ha .

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FOR MY HAIR & FRINGE TO GROW LONG !

There comes a point in your life when you realize . Who matter , who never did , who won't anymore & who always will . So dn't worry about people from your past , there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future .

It seems so close to be fading , do you want this ending ?

心事谁人知

!hcumosrehtafdnargymssimi , you know ?



Didn't went for lit's lesson today , again ); Boring boring life ! Feel like killing myself ! Ugh . I've nothing to blogged about but i feel like blogging . Z ! Watching youtube , listening all hokkien songs . Idk suddenly feel like hearing . I always hated hokkien songs ==' Most of it reminds me of my grandfather ); Super sian can ! Fb also nothing to do . Help pleaseeeeeeeee !

Oh ya , came across few years back S'pore idol . Sylvester Sim ? His voice is so good here ! But i dn't really like him ;/ Ha . His other songs are quite nice too , Suo yi & Di yi ge yuan yin .



Raymond Lam ! One word , 帅 ! Omg want faint alrdy . He is damn damn damn handsome ! But ahxiang say he is more handsome . & raymond lose him by abit . Lols , what do you think ?


Till then . Toodles !

I suddenly rmbred this song in club how everyone got high ==' Been so long since i stepped in & sweat like hell in club . Miss those days .



It's 6AM now ! & it's raining cats & dogs ! Super creepy outside ! Wind super big ! I can't sleep you know . How ? I want to sleep laa ): Browsing thru fb now . Reminds me of e' past ); Damn boring ! Even baby in camp or at home also same ==' E' sky drop down also can't wake him up from his slp . I think i'm not gg to smoke these few days alrdy . Kept want to puke aft a puff . Dn't knw why ;/

AND , AND , AND ! I went to take passport photo @ 4head just nw . I tell you ah ! I cannot stop moving my eyebrows & mouth . ==' E' person 3, 2 , 1 .. aft few secs en' snap . Mouth tired leys . So e' outcome become gan ji teh ugly ! & bought alot foods back home w' my mum & bro . Nuggets , ice lemon tea , bubble tea , mashed potato , roti pratas , onion rings , instant pizza & cake . Siao right ?! Can hold a party alrdy . I wanna go genting go genting go genting ! But swine flu how ? Hope it won't spread to M'sia . If not i'm gonna kill all e' pigs ! Watch tv alrdy . So sick of using comp ! Ugh . Sayo .

越爱越难过 , rmbr ?

Somehow , i miss my grandfather . Whenever i thought of him i would have a feeling he's just right beside me . (;

Oh ya ! I've a new classmate in maths lesson today . He's my secondary classmate , Steven ! Ha . So funny . Joined e' table with him as i was sitting tgt with satheeson . I was msging w satheeson all e' way until i reached school . He told me i've to go office to take my temperature all that .. & e' last msg he texted me in CAPS which was ' OMG STEVEN IN OUR CLASS ' I was laughing like mad ! Dn't knw why he's so aggitated . But both of us were surprised . Lol ! Talked about ' Icegal ' & e' rest in our sec school class . But ' Icegal ' was our main topic . We're laughing non stop ! I think we only pay attention to 1/3 of e' class . I still can't stop laughing now ;D 哈哈哈哈 ! & even temperature taking in class we can laugh for no reasons . I missed my sec school life ! Seems like i missed alot of people in my past huh ?

Steven !
Satheeson ! I rmbr sec sch i was also sitting beside him in maths class . Ha !

I need a new hairstyle , seriously !

My lousy classroom =='

I'm so so super famished now ! Craving for 麻辣火锅 now ! How ? ): Awws .

I HATE MY LIFE ! Fxck it !

Fb quizzes , here i comeeeeeeeeeeeee . Idk why i enjoy doing it . & baby is booking out on thurs ! Yay ! I wanna ask him to dine in @ pizza hut for e' budget meal ! Hahaha ! Ka-ching , ka-ching , where are you ?!

What is love all about ? I've seen something in fb ! & i can't take my mind off that thing . What that person wrote makes me smile . Even though is just a silly qns to that person . Or am i silly ? Z ! Nothing else to do . Banana korkor is entertaining me in MSN . It has been ages since i've logged in to MSN . Baby dsn't likes me to chat with guys );

I've been to Discovery Centre with baby . & it's an eye opener & indeed a great discovery for me to - Hear The Past , See The Present , Touch The Future ! Cool . Baby finds it childish to be there . I think one sentence that enlightened him was ' Where boys become men , men became soldiers ' & he says he's a qualified soldier . ;/ Lame la b ! We bought a package trip . Including of iWERKS theatre 2d documentary show , 4D stimulator ride , entry to discovery dn't knw what ( for us to see & play games ) & entry to e' Army museum . What i enjoyed most is e' 4D stimulator ride ! Sort of e' Cineblast which i went with baby in e' past . But this is even cooler ! 4d eh ! Can feel it ! You even wanna touch it ! Seems so real ! & e' environment is so cool ! Know why ? It's single seater = scaryyyy ! Wee ~ Baby enjoy it ? Ha ! I wanna go many many places ! Still looking forward to our genting trip on july ! Anybody wanna tag along ? (; I wanna go healthzone , science centre etc etc .. It's never boring when you're with me hor , hor ?! Only if you have e' time & moolahs ! Ha .

Before that , went CWP with family & baby . My cousin kept pester me to go Timezone with him ! Z , okay lo . Went with him & i pulled baby along . HAHA ! Intended to play ' House of the dead ' but too many ppl q-ing for that . Decided to try out e' new game Rambo ! I was a noob in that ! I wanted to throw bomb & shake e' gun ! HAHAHAH ! Great laughs for em' . I thought i was playing HOTD . ==' & went on a ride on TZ new game ! Cool ! Stimulator seat too but not 4D ); My cousin chose ' Haunted mine . ' Fun okay ! But $4 a ride ;/

Photobucket is being a bitch to upload my pics so slow !!

Took a non air-conditioned bus there from boonlay . Packed with bangalas ==' So we went up to e' upper deck since it's packed with bangalas on e' lower deck . For merely 4 stops we went upper deck . Lame ! It's located at such a ulu place with factories over .

In e' bus .




Welcome to S'pore Discovery Centre !



My face everytime cramp !



4D stimulator ride !
Hayoos ! Why my face like that ?! =X Huhhhhh baby ?



Discovery Centre !


Later his gf come kill me ! HAHA !



Baby is a very bad photographer ! Tsk !












Q-ing up with em' ?



iWERKS theatre !
Hell man ! It's so big & e' screen is 5 storey high !





Army Museum !


Extra sia !









Nice staircase ey' have . Ha !








Baby can memorise this . & he think he is very sud . Z !


Yay ! Baby so happy cos' he finally sit aeroplane alrdy !



My precious . In cwp he cheated my $1 for this ride .

Do you know ?! Scientist wanna build this thingy called ' Space Elevator ' in e' future ?! What i saw from e' iWERKS theatre . This animated video let us have a look into our future as foreseen by scientists ! Cool right ? Next time we can just take e' space elevator to space ! Wahahah ! ;D

I'm hungry now ); I wanna eat cheese prata !